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As\u0131ls\u0131z Topraklar<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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Ela d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 BMW\u2019yi g\u00f6remedi. Koskoca benzincide tek bir araba vard\u0131. Yepyeni limon sar\u0131s\u0131 bir Ford\u2019un i\u00e7inde iki gen\u00e7 k\u0131z oturmu\u015f konu\u015fuyordu. Pencereleri a\u00e7\u0131k oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in rahatl\u0131kla duyabiliyordu. Bir korku filminden s\u00f6z etmekteydiler. Kans\u0131z gerilim, derin psikoloji, \u00e7\u0131kmaz\u0131n bunalt\u0131s\u0131 cinsinden laflar ettiklerine bak\u0131l\u0131rsa k\u0131zlar m\u00fcrekkep yalam\u0131\u015f tak\u0131mdand\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sa\u011fa sola bak\u0131nd\u0131. D\u00fczenli raflar\u0131 t\u0131kabasa dolu \u0131\u015f\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131l d\u00fckk\u00e2nda tek bir m\u00fc\u015fteri yoktu. K\u0131sa siyah sa\u00e7l\u0131, lise \u00f6\u011frencisi tipli tezg\u00e2htar, kasan\u0131n yan\u0131nda durmu\u015f bir dergi okumaktayd\u0131. Tek t\u00fck arac\u0131n ge\u00e7ti\u011fi yolda \u015fu ana kadar taksitlerinin neredeyse tamam\u0131n\u0131 bizzat \u00f6dedi\u011fi arabalar\u0131ndan eser yoktu. Kocas\u0131n\u0131n tuvalete gitmesinden istifade ederek onu burada b\u0131rak\u0131p ka\u00e7mas\u0131 fikri, davetsiz gelen y\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131k bir misafir gibiydi. \u015eaka ihtimali pek yoktu. Fehmi \u015faka yapma ve f\u0131kra anlatma \u00f6z\u00fcrl\u00fc biriydi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Otomatik olarak el \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131. Kimli\u011fi, 1.020 liral\u0131k kapitali bir kutu Seroxat ve di\u011fer \u0131v\u0131r z\u0131v\u0131r yerindeydi. Arabadaki valizde kalan giysileri, Lustomania marka k\u00fclotlar\u0131, okuyaca\u011f\u0131 iki kitab\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Akl\u0131na Fehmi\u2019nin daha evvelki u\u00e7uk mavi arabalar\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya boyatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 geldi. Yeni bir a\u015fk ar\u0131yorum haberin<\/em> olsun<\/em> rengi. Bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f, s\u00f6ylememi\u015fti. S\u00f6yleseydi \u015fimdi \u0130stanbul\u2019da olurdu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Antalya\u2019da ikinci balay\u0131 yapma fikri yanl\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bunu en ba\u015f\u0131ndan beri biliyordu. Annesi, \u201cNafile,\u201d demi\u015fti. Hakl\u0131yd\u0131 kad\u0131n. \u0130li\u015fki tavsam\u0131\u015f ve bitmi\u015fti. Kurtar\u0131labilecek bir \u015fey yoktu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ela bile bile lades de olsa bu kurtarma operasyonunu A\u2019dan Z\u2019ye planlama i\u015fini \u00fcstlenmi\u015fti. Fehmi\u2019yle ili\u015fkisinin diki\u015flerini iyice s\u00f6kme i\u015fini a\u015fklar\u0131n\u0131n doru\u011funu ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 yerde yapman\u0131n ac\u0131kl\u0131 bir romantizmi vard\u0131. \u2018Ayn\u0131 noktaya iki kez y\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m isabet etmez\u2019 s\u00f6z\u00fcne nispet olarak.<\/span><\/p>\n

Fehmi hayat\u0131n\u0131n ilk kaliteli \u015fakas\u0131n\u0131 yapman\u0131n zafer g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesiyle \u015fimdi \u015furada belirecek <\/em>fikri, bozulmak \u00fczere olan bir ampul\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi titrekti. Adam\u0131n \u00f6yle bir \u015fey becermesi m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi. Bu olanlar\u0131 annesine hangi kelimelerle anlataca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken hafiften keyiflendi. Fehmi\u2019nin asl\u0131nda neyi terk etti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce ans\u0131z\u0131n ortada kalm\u0131\u015f olman\u0131n i\u00e7inde yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 c\u0131l\u0131z \u00f6fke s\u00f6nd\u00fc ve \u2018\u015fimdi ne olacak\u2019 moduna d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/span><\/p>\n

Tek gidi\u015f \u0130stanbul bileti y\u00f6n\u00fcnde harekete ge\u00e7ti. K\u0131zlara do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Karde\u015fe benzeyen, siyah dalgal\u0131 sa\u00e7l\u0131, f\u0131k\u0131r f\u0131k\u0131r k\u0131zlar o yakla\u015f\u0131nca susup merakla bakt\u0131lar. Benzinciye vard\u0131klar\u0131nda hen\u00fcz gelmemi\u015flerdi. Kendisi tuvalette b\u00fcy\u00fck i\u015fini yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in biraz uzun kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7ocuklu\u011fundan beri bu i\u015fi a\u011f\u0131r \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015fl\u0131 taksitlerle yapmaya al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. K\u0131zlar belki de sinsice t\u00fcyen k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 arabay\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015flerdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cHangi y\u00f6ne gidiyorsunuz?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cO k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 arabadan m\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Ela \u00f6zel bir okulda tarih \u00f6\u011fretmenli\u011fi yapmaktayd\u0131. Y\u0131llard\u0131r elinde k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kalemle yaz\u0131l\u0131 k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 okuyan yan\u0131, bu k\u0131sa diyalo\u011fu \u2018k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n nafilesi, yani s\u0131f\u0131r y\u00f6n\u00fc\u2019 olarak \u00f6zetlemi\u015fti. O y\u00f6n sonsuza dek bitmi\u015fti art\u0131k.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cEvet. G\u00f6rd\u00fcn\u00fcz demek?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSiz gelmeden az \u00f6nce gitti.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u015eof\u00f6r mahallindeki k\u0131z ta\u015f \u00e7atlasa yirmi ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde samimi bir anlay\u0131\u015f ifadesi vard\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cHangi y\u00f6ne?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBu tarafa.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz\u00fck parma\u011f\u0131nda o\u011flak burcu semboll\u00fc g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f bir y\u00fcz\u00fck ta\u015f\u0131yan elin Antalya taraf\u0131n\u0131 i\u015faret etmesi biraz \u015fa\u015f\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131yd\u0131. Fehmi ili\u015fkileri biterayak \u015faka yapmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmeye mi \u00e7abalamaktayd\u0131?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSiz ne tarafa gideceksiniz?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cYa siz?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cFark etmez. Otob\u00fcs, u\u00e7ak bulabilece\u011fim bir yer olsun da.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cKocan\u0131z m\u0131?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130di.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBinin. Sizi g\u00f6t\u00fcrelim.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Ela arka kap\u0131dan i\u00e7eri girince, beyninde uzaklardan bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce patlad\u0131. Arka koltu\u011fun yenili\u011fi, temizli\u011fi, tuvaleti hat\u0131rlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Deri ve cila kokusu keskindi h\u00e2l\u00e2.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBenim ad\u0131m Ela.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBenimki Selma,\u201d dedi \u015fof\u00f6r k\u0131z. \u201cArkada\u015f\u0131m da Safir.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cMemnun oldum.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Selma ile Safir yak\u0131ndan sa\u00e7lar\u0131 hari\u00e7 \u00e7ok benzemiyorlard\u0131. Safir daha beyaz tenli ve bal\u0131k etliydi. Tombul bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 bolca g\u00f6steren bir mini etek giymi\u015fti. Selma motoru \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131 ve benzinciden \u00e7\u0131karak Antalya yoluna sapt\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ela i\u00e7ini \u00e7ekti ve, \u201cOtelde odam haz\u0131r,\u201d dedi.<\/span><\/p>\n

K\u0131zlar, \u201cHangi otel?\u201d diye sormad\u0131lar. Saniyeler ak\u0131p ge\u00e7ti, kendileriyle ilgili hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemediler. Yol eyl\u00fcl ortas\u0131 i\u00e7in \u015fa\u015f\u0131lacak kadar tenhayd\u0131. Antalya 20 kilometre<\/strong> yaz\u0131l\u0131 tabelay\u0131 ge\u00e7erlerken Ela dayanamad\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSizi de rahats\u0131z ettim.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cYok can\u0131m, ne rahats\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131,\u201d dedi Safir, candan. S\u2019leri belli belirsiz \u015f gibi telaffuz etmekteydi. \u201cBiz de o tarafa gidecektik zaten. \u015euras\u0131 ne ki. Geldik bile.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u00d6\u011frenci misiniz?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cEvet,\u201d dedi Selma. \u201cD\u00fcnden beri tatildeyiz.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Ela, k\u0131zlar\u0131n candanl\u0131klar\u0131nda bir yapmac\u0131kl\u0131k m\u0131 saptad\u0131m,<\/em> diye sormaktayd\u0131 kendine. Ses tonlar\u0131nda sinsi bir katman? Bir \u015feyler normal de\u011fildi sanki. Belki yolda \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan arabal\u0131 k\u0131zlardand\u0131lar? Sanm\u0131yordu. Araban\u0131n yenili\u011fi b\u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmesini engelliyordu. Yenilik, tazelik ve dokunulmam\u0131\u015fl\u0131k duygusu har\u0131l har\u0131ld\u0131. Bu zamanda bu \u015firin k\u0131zlar her \u015fey olabilirlerdi. Yaln\u0131z on dakika sonra istedi\u011fi yere varacakt\u0131. On dakika daha b\u00f6yle davransalar yeterdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cHayat\u0131mda yol \u00fcst\u00fcnde rastlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m en temiz ve bak\u0131ml\u0131 tuvaleti g\u00f6rd\u00fcm az \u00f6nce.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBu taraflarda baya\u011f\u0131 yenilenme var,\u201d dedi Safir, yan g\u00f6zle Selma\u2019ya bakarak.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u015eu asfalt mesela,\u201d dedi Selma. \u201cDaha bu sabah… Birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce yani. Delik de\u015fikti.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Ela ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131. Asfalt yekpare bir yenilik abidesi gibiydi. G\u00f6z alabildi\u011fine uzanan yolda tek bir yama, e\u011fri b\u00fc\u011fr\u00fcl\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fclmemekteydi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Her \u015feyin birden g\u0131c\u0131r g\u0131c\u0131rla\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 alt\u0131 y\u0131ld\u0131r gelmedi\u011fi yerdeki belediyecilerin ba\u015far\u0131s\u0131 gibi g\u00f6rmek isteyen yan\u0131 isteksizdi. Ba\u015fka ne olabilirdi? Adamlar \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f ve yapm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Avrupa Birli\u011fi\u2019ne uyum i\u00e7in de olabilirdi. K\u0131zlar\u0131n ondan bir \u015fey saklad\u0131klar\u0131 sezgisi gittik\u00e7e g\u00fc\u00e7lendi\u011finden ba\u015fka soru sormad\u0131. Hangi okulda okuduklar\u0131yla ba\u015flayarak, di\u011fer kad\u0131n kad\u0131na konulara ge\u00e7me iste\u011fi \u00f6lg\u00fcnle\u015fmi\u015fti. \u00c7evresinden s\u0131r s\u00f6kmeye \u00e7abalarken g\u00f6zleri a\u011f\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131. A\u015f\u0131r\u0131 yenilenmi\u015fli\u011fi izlemek, alg\u0131lamak adeta yorgunluk verici bir etki yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 \u00fczerinde.<\/span><\/p>\n

Cinni<\/em>, dumans\u0131z ate\u015ften, n\u00e2rdan yaratt\u0131k<\/em>. Uyar\u0131c\u0131 nabz\u0131n tavsiyelerine uymad\u0131 ve g\u00f6zlerini yumdu.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cEla Han\u0131m, geldik.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Ela irkilerek g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Selma\u2019n\u0131n g\u00fcler y\u00fcz\u00fcyle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131. K\u0131z\u0131n iri kahverengi g\u00f6zlerinde sevecenli\u011fin yan\u0131 s\u0131ra bir tabaka daha vard\u0131 sanki. Esprisini kavramad\u0131\u011f\u0131 f\u0131kraya di\u011ferleriyle birlikte g\u00fclen biri gibi hissetmekteydi kendini. Neydi? Bo\u015fver<\/em> \u015fimdi<\/em>ydi. Pu\u015ft Fehmi\u2019nin arabas\u0131 be\u015f metre \u00f6tede kald\u0131r\u0131ma park etmi\u015fti. Haslett Oteli yaz\u0131l\u0131 camekan hemen sa\u011f\u0131ndayd\u0131. \u00c7ok uygun bir noktaya varm\u0131\u015flard\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBir an…\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cGerilimdendir.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u00d6yle olmal\u0131.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Ela arabadan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p kendinden on santim daha uzun olan k\u0131za elini uzatt\u0131. \u0130nce kemik yap\u0131s\u0131na oranla iri memeleri \u00f6zel sutyenlerle oldu\u011fundan daha kabar\u0131k duran, dar kal\u00e7al\u0131, incecik belli, uzun bacakl\u0131, tam Fehmi\u2019nin bitti\u011fi tiplerdendi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ela ince yap\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131. Annesi, \u201cLise bire ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndaki g\u00fcnlerdesin h\u00e2l\u00e2,\u201d derdi. Bir y\u0131l sonra otuzlara kar\u0131\u015facak biri olarak teni \u00e7ok canl\u0131yd\u0131. Dolgun dudaklar\u0131, \u00e7ekik g\u00f6zleriyle g\u00fczel bir y\u00fcz\u00fc vard\u0131. \u0130yi g\u00fcnlerinde yirmi ya\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yleyenlerin say\u0131s\u0131 baya\u011f\u0131 fazlayd\u0131. Ama uzun bacakl\u0131 kad\u0131nlara, \u00f6zellikle \u015fu k\u0131z gibi olanlara \u00e7ok \u00f6zenirdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u00c7ok te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

K\u0131z\u0131n serin eli tenine temas edince, uykuya dalmadan \u00f6nceki endi\u015feleri k\u0131p\u0131rda\u015ft\u0131. Bir \u015feyler normal de\u011fildi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBir \u015fey de\u011fil. Bizim acilen gitmemiz… Noktalar ufalan\u0131yor… Bir randevumuz vard\u0131 da yani.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cTabii. \u00c7ok te\u015fekk\u00fcrler yine.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

K\u0131z arabaya binerken Safir sa\u011f camdan elini sallad\u0131. Ela \u2018dost\u00e7a \u0131\u015f\u0131man\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra\u2019 denebilecek \u015feyi yeniden sezdi. Uyar\u0131 m\u0131? Ba\u015fka ne? Ac\u0131ma belki. D\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc durum nedeniyle. Kad\u0131n dayan\u0131\u015fmas\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sar\u0131 araba yola koyulunca Ela bir dizi gariplikle ba\u015f ba\u015fa kald\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck otelin camekan\u0131ndan i\u00e7eride hi\u00e7 kimse g\u00f6r\u00fcnmemekteydi. Etraf g\u0131c\u0131r g\u0131c\u0131rd\u0131. Sanki T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de D\u00fcnya G\u0131c\u0131r G\u0131c\u0131r Yerler \u015eampiyonas\u0131 i\u00e7in bir belde se\u00e7ilmi\u015f ve buras\u0131 bu hale getirilmi\u015fti. A\u011fa\u00e7l\u0131kl\u0131 yola bakt\u0131. \u0130lerideki kav\u015faktan tek t\u00fck araba ge\u00e7mekteydi. Hi\u00e7biri bulundu\u011fu y\u00f6ne do\u011fru gelmiyordu. Tek bir Allah\u2019\u0131n kulu yoktu sokakta. Se\u00e7im g\u00fcn\u00fcyd\u00fc sanki. G\u0131c\u0131r g\u0131c\u0131rl\u0131k dal\u0131nda d\u00fcnya birincilik \u00f6d\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc al\u0131nca g\u00fcnlerdir evde cips, f\u0131nd\u0131k f\u0131st\u0131k yiyerek, televizyon seyrederek s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131dan patlam\u0131\u015f insanlar\u0131 sokaklara salacaklard\u0131 yeniden. \u00c7\u0131k\u0131p her \u015feyi bir g\u00fcnde eski haline getirsinler diye.<\/span><\/p>\n

Arabaya bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u015fof\u00f6r mahallinde oturan birini fark edince, otelin giri\u015fine y\u00f6nelen ayaklar\u0131 \u00f6nceli\u011fini de\u011fi\u015ftirdi. Tenha ve hastal\u0131kl\u0131 derecede bak\u0131ml\u0131 soka\u011f\u0131n kald\u0131r\u0131m\u0131nda y\u00fcr\u00fcrken toz toprak, klakson sesleri, iti\u015f kak\u0131\u015fl\u0131k, aksak kurulmu\u015f yap\u0131lar\u0131n estetik d\u0131\u015f\u0131 sald\u0131rganl\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi \u015feyleri ne denli \u00f6zledi\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmekteydi. Beyninde alarm veren yerler vard\u0131. Bunlar a\u015f\u0131r\u0131 eskimi\u015f koltuk yaylar\u0131 gibiydiler. Bas\u0131l\u0131p b\u0131rak\u0131l\u0131nca geri yaylanmalar\u0131 \u00e7ok yava\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Arabaya iyice yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, direksiyonda oturan Fehmi ald\u0131r\u0131\u015fs\u0131zca k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131z konumunu de\u011fi\u015ftirmedi. Uyuyakalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 belki. O zaman kafas\u0131 arkal\u0131\u011fa yasl\u0131 olurdu. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere dalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 belki de. Ya da ilk ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 \u015fakas\u0131n\u0131 unutulmaza boyamak i\u00e7in ald\u0131r\u0131\u015fs\u0131z davranmaktayd\u0131. \u2018\u0130n\u015fallah b\u00f6yledir\u2019 diyen yan\u0131 k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r, elini sa\u011f \u00f6n kap\u0131n\u0131n koluna uzatt\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSak\u0131n dokunmay\u0131n o arabaya.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Ela la\u00e7kala\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir vaziyette soluna bakt\u0131. Orta ya\u015fl\u0131, atletik yap\u0131l\u0131 bir adam \u00fc\u00e7 metre kadar arkas\u0131nda durmaktayd\u0131. Bu arada \u00e7evresi kalabal\u0131kla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bir otel limuzini kald\u0131r\u0131ma park etmi\u015fti. \u0130\u00e7inde bulunan \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rt ki\u015fi inmekle me\u015fguld\u00fc. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 nas\u0131l olur da \u00f6nceden i\u015fitmezdi?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cO sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u015fey de\u011fil.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Ela dalg\u0131nl\u0131kla bir Bengal kaplan\u0131n\u0131n kafesine elini uzatm\u0131\u015f biri gibi toparland\u0131. Kumral sa\u00e7lar\u0131 iyice k\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131\u015f olan adam bilmeden deminden beri aray\u0131p durdu\u011fu varg\u0131 c\u00fcmlesini kurmu\u015ftu. \u00c7evresindeki hi\u00e7bir \u015fey tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 bildi\u011fi e\u015fyaya benzememekteydi. Neyse ki art\u0131k yaln\u0131z de\u011fildi. \u00dczerine abanm\u0131\u015f olan g\u0131c\u0131r g\u0131c\u0131r ger\u00e7ekli\u011fe a\u00e7abilirdi kendini.<\/span><\/p>\n

Arkon Hillsmith k\u0131l\u0131c\u0131n k\u0131n\u0131ndan ans\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7ekilmesi gibi dald\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerden s\u0131yr\u0131ld\u0131. Bunu araban\u0131n fren yapmas\u0131 sa\u011flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Varm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 sonunda.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cHaslett Oteli.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Sol kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda oturan, darac\u0131k siyah kot pantolon, sar\u0131 ti\u015f\u00f6rt ve g\u00fcl kurusu renkli kolsuz bir triko bluz giymi\u015f gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n, s\u00fcrme kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7evik bir hareketle a\u00e7\u0131p kald\u0131r\u0131ma ayak bast\u0131. K\u0131sa siyah sa\u00e7l\u0131, s\u0131r\u0131m v\u00fccutlu, ho\u015f bir gen\u00e7 kad\u0131nd\u0131. Koyu kahverengi deriden el \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 karn\u0131na yaslam\u0131\u015f, otele bakmaktayd\u0131. Gergin bir hali vard\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Bu arada \u015fof\u00f6r mahalli bo\u015falm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Adam herhalde bagaja y\u00fckledikleri bavullar\u0131 indirmeye gitmi\u015fti. Arkon tam davranaca\u011f\u0131 s\u0131rada arkas\u0131ndan gelen bir hareket sezince duraklad\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBuras\u0131 oldu\u011fundan emin misiniz?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Arkon inmek i\u00e7in hamle yapan kad\u0131na bakt\u0131. Sar\u0131 pantolonlu, beyaz g\u00f6mlekli, k\u0131rk ba\u015flar\u0131nda bir sar\u0131\u015f\u0131nd\u0131. Rus oldu\u011fu y\u00fcz metreden belliydi. Kald\u0131r\u0131ma ayak bas\u0131nca, g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f ge\u00e7irmi\u015f bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fczerine y\u00f6neltmi\u015fti. \u0130ri mavi g\u00f6zleri endi\u015feli bir zek\u00e2yla parlamaktayd\u0131. Beyaz g\u00f6mle\u011fini geren iki harika \u2018neden as\u0131l ilgi oda\u011f\u0131 biziz\u2019 diye ba\u011f\u0131rmaktayd\u0131. Ba\u015fka \u015fartlar alt\u0131nda Arkon bu durumdan ho\u015flan\u0131r ve sonu \u00e7\u0131kmaza varacak olsa da en fl\u00f6rt\u00f6z tavr\u0131yla cevap verirdi, ama durum \u015fu anda \u00e7ok farkl\u0131yd\u0131. Yolculu\u011fu hakk\u0131nda hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yegane iki an\u0131yla ba\u015f ba\u015fayd\u0131. Washington Ronald Reagan Havaalan\u0131\u2019nda oturup 16.45\u2019de harekete edecek \u0130stanbul u\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n\u0131 beklerken kahve i\u00e7ti\u011fi ve \u2018\u0130stanbul Atat\u00fcrk Havaliman\u0131\u2019na inmek i\u00e7in al\u00e7al\u0131yoruz. L\u00fctfen kemerlerinizi ba\u011flay\u0131n\u2019 ikaz\u0131. Kemeri ba\u011fl\u0131yd\u0131. \u0130ki eliyle yoklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu yoklama sonras\u0131 beyni bir dakika \u00f6ncesine s\u0131\u00e7ram\u0131\u015ft\u0131. On saat boyunca yan\u0131nda kimler oturmu\u015ftu, onu bile hat\u0131rlam\u0131yordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Belle\u011findeki kay\u0131p son on be\u015f-yirmi saatle s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131yd\u0131 neyse ki. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fi gri-kahverengi bir da\u011f silsilesi gibi arkas\u0131nda durmaktayd\u0131. Kar\u0131s\u0131 bavullar\u0131n\u0131 haz\u0131rlarken telefon etmi\u015fti. B\u00fcy\u00fck o\u011flu Matt yeni bir motorsiklet almak istiyordu. Babas\u0131 gitmeden bir \u00e7ek yaz\u0131p masan\u0131n \u00fczerine b\u0131rak\u0131r m\u0131yd\u0131? O\u011flu iyi yolculuklar dilemi\u015fti ard\u0131ndan. Nereye ve neden gitti\u011fini sormadan. Nedeni anlatamazd\u0131, ama bu soruyu duymak isterdi. K\u0131z\u0131 Diana grip oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in uzaktan iyi yolculuklar dilemi\u015fti. Mikrodalgalar\u0131n vir\u00fcs ta\u015f\u0131yabilece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu. On iki ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131 ve \u015fimdiden bu d\u00fcnyayla birikmi\u015f bir s\u00fcr\u00fc meselesi vard\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSiz ne i\u00e7in geldiniz?\u201d diye sordu kad\u0131na.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cTatil. Ekimde Antalya \u00e7ok ho\u015f olur diye bir reklam g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Bileti al\u0131verdim. Ya siz?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBen \u015fey i\u00e7in…\u201d dedi Arkon. \u201cAstrofizik\u00e7iler kongresi i\u00e7in… Bu otel pek kongre yap\u0131lacak bir yere benzemiyor. Elli iki \u00fclkeden \u00fc\u00e7 y\u00fcz d\u00f6rt ki\u015fi demi\u015flerdi. \u00dc\u00e7-d\u00f6rt ki\u015fi var sadece. Ayr\u0131ca…\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBe\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131zl\u0131, olimpik havuzlu, saunal\u0131 bir yere de benzemiyor, do\u011fru. E\u011fer arkaya do\u011fru bir derinlik falan yoksa. Demek fizik\u00e7isiniz?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Kad\u0131n\u0131n belli belirsiz hissedilen Rus aksanl\u0131 konu\u015fmas\u0131 baya\u011f\u0131 ak\u0131c\u0131yd\u0131. Arkon arabadan \u00e7\u0131karak etraf\u0131na bak\u0131nd\u0131. \u015eof\u00f6r ortalarda g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu. Belki otele girmi\u015fti. Camdan g\u00f6rebildi\u011fi kadar i\u00e7eride kimsecikler yoktu. \u00c7evrenin bak\u0131ml\u0131 atmosferinin tenhal\u0131\u011f\u0131 hemen dikkatini \u00e7ekmi\u015fti. On metre kadar ileride k\u0131r sa\u00e7l\u0131, geni\u015f omuzlu, siyah kot ceketli bir adamla, kestane renkli sa\u00e7l\u0131 bir kad\u0131n konu\u015fmaktayd\u0131lar. Kad\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc allak bullakt\u0131 bu mesafeden iyi se\u00e7ebiliyorsa.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cHaslett ne demekse… Ad\u0131m Arkon.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Kad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc parmaklar\u0131 eline de\u011fince Arkon olan bitenlerin b\u00fct\u00fcn tekinsizli\u011fe ra\u011fmen baz\u0131 ho\u015f \u015feylerin mevcudiyetine te\u015fekk\u00fcr etti i\u00e7inden.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cVanecca. S k\u0131sa okunacak. Amerikal\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSiz de Rus. Ve burada olman\u0131z\u0131n sebebi kongre falan de\u011fil. Kongre gaz\u0131 \u00e7oktan ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015f. Bir aralar vard\u0131ysa tabii.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBir teze mi sahipsiniz?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Arkon kad\u0131n\u0131n iyice ciddile\u015fen y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131. \u201cHen\u00fcz de\u011fil. Bir izah\u0131 olmal\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n. Belle\u011fimin baz\u0131 \u00fcniteleri \u015fu anda vestiyerde. Bir geri alay\u0131m hele.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Kad\u0131n ac\u0131 ac\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi. \u201c\u00d6nce vestiyeri bulmam\u0131z laz\u0131m tabii.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Arkon ap\u0131\u015f\u0131p kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu kadar basit bir \u015feyi ak\u0131l edememesi ne aptall\u0131kt\u0131. Kad\u0131n da kendisiyle ayn\u0131 durumdayd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

***<\/strong><\/p>\n

Vanecca Kolbachi, Amerikal\u0131\u2019n\u0131n casus oldu\u011funu sanm\u0131yordu. Sersemli\u011fi ger\u00e7ekti. T\u0131pk\u0131 kendininki gibi onun belle\u011finde de son saatlerin kay\u0131tlar\u0131 delik de\u015fik olmal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBir plan yapmam\u0131z laz\u0131m.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Adam ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131 ve, \u201cBelki \u00f6nce di\u011ferleriyle tan\u0131\u015fmam\u0131z iyi olur,\u201d dedi. \u201cSiz de fizik\u00e7i misiniz?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Siyah sa\u00e7l\u0131 gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n otele do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcrken Vanecca sa\u011f\u0131nda duran \u00e7ifte bakt\u0131. \u00d6nce Amerikal\u0131y\u0131 biraz \u00f6l\u00e7mekte bi\u00e7mekte yarar vard\u0131. Gri g\u00fcr sa\u00e7lar\u0131, iri siyah g\u00f6zleri, k\u0131r\u00e7\u0131ll\u0131 ceketi, lacivert \u00e7izgili beyaz g\u00f6mle\u011fi ve gri kuma\u015f pantolonuyla standart bir profes\u00f6r portresi \u00e7izmekteydi. Adamdan ho\u015flanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cMeseleyi ne kadar biliyorsunuz?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Amerikal\u0131n\u0131n \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ok daha k\u0131sa s\u00fcreliydi bu defa. \u201cTahmin etmeliydim.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cNe kadar?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c2013 eyl\u00fcl\u00fc. 26 Eyl\u00fcl\u2019d\u00fc san\u0131r\u0131m. A\u011fr\u0131 projesi.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cKa\u00e7 deney yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cD\u00f6rt. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc bir felaket oldu. D\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc telafi i\u00e7indi. Felaketi otomatik vitese takt\u0131.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cHangi b\u00f6l\u00fcm?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cAlternatif enerji.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Vanecca g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi. Adam g\u00fcne\u015f, r\u00fczgar, gelgit gibi enerji \u00e7e\u015fitlerini kastetmiyordu. Alfa enerji. Uzay\u0131n i\u00e7inde gizli enerji paket\u00e7ikleri vard\u0131. \u0130rili ufakl\u0131, her yerdeydiler. Bunlar\u0131 bulup kontrol etmek f\u00fczyon enerjisini bile a\u015fan bir kayna\u011f\u0131 kullanmak demekti.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cGeri kalan \u00fc\u00e7 y\u00fcz ki\u015fi nerede acaba?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Adam konu\u015fmalar\u0131 bitmi\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen \u00e7ifte bakt\u0131. \u201cBelki onlar bizden daha fazla \u015fey biliyorlard\u0131r. Ya da \u015fu i\u00e7eri giren kad\u0131n.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Vanecca muhtemel raydan \u00e7\u0131kma durumu i\u00e7in e\u011fitilmi\u015f olmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmekteydi, ama belle\u011finde bunun kayd\u0131 kuydu yoktu. \u00d6zel bir bilgi ya da formatlanma belirtisi de hak getireydi. Nas\u0131l ajanl\u0131kt\u0131 bu?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cUmar\u0131m.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cGel otele bir bakal\u0131m.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBavullar ne olacak?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cH\u0131rs\u0131zlar bug\u00fcn tatildeler san\u0131r\u0131m. \u015eof\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00fcz de s\u0131rra kadem bast\u0131 zaten.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Vanecca adama g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi yeniden. Bu defa bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 daha vaat y\u00fckl\u00fc olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Adamda bir dirilme olmu\u015ftu. Tabii \u015fu anda akl\u0131na gelen \u015feyi de d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f olabilirdi. Acaba araban\u0131n bagaj\u0131nda bavul mavul var m\u0131yd\u0131? Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc hayal meyal hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fof\u00f6r kimdi? Neydi ya da? Yer\u00e7ekimi katsay\u0131s\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2 9,8 miydi?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130\u00e7eri gidelim bir bakal\u0131m.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Vanecca minnetle Amerikal\u0131ya bakt\u0131. Onca da en iyisi \u00f6nce adresin niteli\u011fini g\u00f6zden ge\u00e7irmekti. Uzaktan tek t\u00fck arabalar\u0131n ge\u00e7ti\u011fi insans\u0131z sokaklara bak\u0131p durmaya biraz ara vermek fena fikir de\u011fildi. \u0130\u00e7erisi nas\u0131ld\u0131 acaba?<\/span><\/p>\n

***<\/strong><\/p>\n

Otelin bombo\u015f lobisine ad\u0131m att\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Ayl\u0131ca Bergen’in \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 en \u00fcst kerteye y\u00fckseldi. Buras\u0131 kararla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lan yere benzemekle beraber oras\u0131 de\u011fildi. Esas otel \u00e7ok daha b\u00fcy\u00fck ve kalabal\u0131k olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Kendisini bekleyecek iki yard\u0131mc\u0131 ortada yoktu. Limuzinde beraber geldi\u011fi iki ki\u015fide ve kald\u0131r\u0131mda durmu\u015f konu\u015fan o \u00e7iftte kendi meselesiyle ilgili bir titre\u015fim saptamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu i\u015flev i\u00e7in biraz ya\u015fl\u0131yd\u0131lar \u00fcstelik.<\/span><\/p>\n

Resepsiyona do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcrken arkas\u0131na k\u0131sa bir bak\u0131\u015f f\u0131rlatt\u0131. Rus oldu\u011funu tahmin etti\u011fi o sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n kad\u0131n, gri sa\u00e7l\u0131, memur tipli adamla konu\u015fmaktayd\u0131. Di\u011fer ikili g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f alan\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131. S\u0131radan otel m\u00fc\u015fterileriydiler. \u015eof\u00f6r bir yerlere s\u0131v\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. O da \u00f6nemli de\u011fildi. \u0130\u015fini bitirince kenara konan bir tencere gibiydi. Bo\u015f ve duygusuz.<\/span><\/p>\n

Dikkatini yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kan merdivenlere ve asans\u00f6r\u00fcn oldu\u011fu yere verdi tekrar. Her yer tertipli ve tertemizdi. Bu nedenle terk edilmi\u015flik havas\u0131 birka\u00e7 saniyeli\u011fine kurulmu\u015f duygusu vermekteydi. \u015eimdi nazik y\u00fcz\u00fc az\u0131c\u0131k tela\u015fl\u0131 bir resepsiyonistin bir yerden se\u011firtti\u011fini g\u00f6recekti.<\/span><\/p>\n

Planda bir aksilik oldu\u011fu \u00e7ok a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, ama bu a\u00e7\u0131k vermesi i\u00e7in bir neden de\u011fildi. \u00c7antas\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7indeki tabancay\u0131 s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 kavram\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Emniyet a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Namluya kur\u015fun s\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcyd\u00fc. Tetikte bekledi. Bu arada ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmekteydi. Resepsiyonun elektronik anahtar kart\u0131 y\u00fckl\u00fc raflar\u0131na bakt\u0131. Otel ta\u015f \u00e7atlasa otuz odal\u0131yd\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn kartlar\u0131 alarak ve \u00f6nce eksiklerden ba\u015flayarak odalar\u0131 tek tek aramas\u0131 gerekecekti. Yaln\u0131z ba\u015f\u0131na olmas\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck bir dezavantajd\u0131, ama o Pierre denen solucan\u0131 gebertmeden buradan d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmayacakt\u0131. Hissediyordu. Bu binadayd\u0131. Ka\u00e7 defa k\u0131st\u0131rm\u0131\u015f ve ka\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130\u015f burada noktalanacakt\u0131. NWA i\u00e7in \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan d\u00f6rt can ci\u011fer arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n katili olan k\u00f6pe\u011fi vurarak defteri kapatacakt\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Etraf\u0131 kesmeye devam ederek \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 resepsiyon masas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerine koydu. Makarov tabancas\u0131 v\u00fccuduna yasl\u0131 olarak sa\u011f elindeydi. Sol eliyle cep telefonunu alarak d\u00fc\u011fmesine bast\u0131. Ekranda hat ve sat\u0131h ar\u0131zas\u0131 s\u00f6zc\u00fckleri belirdi ve kayboldu. \u00dcstelemedi. \u00dcsleri taraf\u0131ndan bu t\u00fcr ar\u0131zalara kar\u015f\u0131 uyar\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Bu arada i\u015flek zek\u00e2s\u0131 havaalan\u0131ndan bu yana ge\u00e7en bir saati de\u011ferlendirmi\u015f ve ar\u0131zan\u0131n son yirmi kilometrede belirdi\u011fini saptam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Tabelay\u0131 hat\u0131rl\u0131yordu. 20 km. Oradan itibaren gariplikler silsilesi ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Araban\u0131n i\u00e7 aksesuar\u0131 dahil her \u015fey ba\u015fkala\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ayl\u0131ca Bergen, Karamanl\u0131 baba, Bel\u00e7ikal\u0131 anneden do\u011fma biriydi. Gent b\u00fct\u00fcn formasyonunu edindi\u011fi bir yerdi. Yirmi \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131ll\u0131k ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 be\u015f d\u00f6neme ay\u0131rabilirdi. On sorunsuz y\u0131l. Hayallerle y\u00fckl\u00fc zaman kabarc\u0131klar\u0131. Anne ve baba taraf\u0131ndan sevilen, \u015f\u0131mart\u0131lan bir \u00e7ocuktu. Bedeni ve ruhundaki yar\u0131 hissenin sorun olmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 d\u00f6nem. Hafif, orta, \u015fiddetlice ve ard\u0131ndan gelen f\u0131rt\u0131na.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ayl\u0131ca, nam\u0131 di\u011fer Ayline, aksans\u0131z Frans\u0131zca ve Felemenk\u00e7esi ve n\u00fcfusunun annesininkine kay\u0131tl\u0131 olmas\u0131 sayesinde yabanc\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 belli olanlar\u0131n \u00e7ekti\u011fi sorunlardan s\u0131yr\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Babas\u0131 on iki ya\u015f\u0131ndayken trafik kazas\u0131nda \u00f6l\u00fcnce T\u00fcrkiye ve akrabalar\u0131yla ili\u015fkisi kopmu\u015ftu. Buna ra\u011fmen i\u00e7indeki Do\u011fulu yar\u0131 diri kalm\u0131\u015f ve zaman\u0131 geldi\u011finde do\u011fru yere kap\u0131lanmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Eski d\u00fcnya t\u00fcmden y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131p yenisi kurulurken tasfiye gruplar\u0131 \u00f6nem kazanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu gruplar aras\u0131ndaki amans\u0131z sava\u015f s\u00fcrmekteydi. Bir teknik felaket, d\u00fczenli ordular aras\u0131ndaki sava\u015f\u0131 imk\u00e2ns\u0131z k\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck gruplar\u0131n didi\u015fti\u011fi bir yerdi d\u00fcnya art\u0131k.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sezgileri daha ayaklar sar\u0131 hal\u0131 kapl\u0131 basamaklarda belirmeden kendini uyarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7antay\u0131 tezg\u00e2h\u0131n \u00fczerinde b\u0131rakt\u0131 ve iki elle kavrad\u0131\u011f\u0131 tabancas\u0131n\u0131 omzu hizas\u0131nda o tarafa do\u011frultarak bekledi. Bekledi\u011fi an gelmi\u015fti. \u0130\u00e7i i\u00e7ine s\u0131\u011fm\u0131yordu. Gelenin Pierre oldu\u011fundan ad\u0131 gibi emindi. Bu kadar kesin bilgiyi nas\u0131l edindi\u011fini sorgulayan yan\u0131 uyu\u015fuktu. B\u00fct\u00fcn dikkati namlunun y\u00f6neldi\u011fi yerdeydi art\u0131k.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Pierre Tasken bir r\u00fcya kayd\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndan h\u0131zla kayarak uyan\u0131kl\u0131\u011fa ula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda endi\u015feli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler \u00fczerine \u00e7ullan\u0131verdi. R\u00fcyalar\u0131 hat\u0131rlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan yan\u0131 h\u0131zla pes etti ve g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131. Tuzak kokusu alan yan\u0131 \u2018tabancam nerede\u2019 diye aran\u0131rken, bir yandan da nerede oldu\u011funu hat\u0131rlamaya \u00e7abalamaktayd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Yata\u011f\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131ndaki masan\u0131n \u00fczerinde duran bombo\u015f Wild Turkey viski \u015fi\u015fesi ve son damlas\u0131na kadar i\u00e7ilmi\u015f hissi veren \u00fc\u00e7 adet yar\u0131m litrelik Heineken kutu biras\u0131na bakt\u0131. A\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n kurulu\u011fu, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yar\u0131m yollu a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131, midesinin hafiften \u00e7alkant\u0131l\u0131 olmas\u0131 i\u00e7in baya\u011f\u0131 \u00e7abalam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 yani. \u00dczerinde \u00f6rt\u00fc yoktu. Pike sa\u011f ayak ucunda yerdeydi. Di\u011fer yast\u0131\u011fa dokunulmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Beynindeki u\u00e7u\u015fmal\u0131 kad\u0131n hayalleri daha eskilere aitti. Geceyi tek ba\u015f\u0131na bitirmi\u015fti.<\/span><\/p>\n

Tabancas\u0131, tahmin etti\u011fi gibi ter i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015f olan yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131ndayd\u0131. Silah\u0131 al\u0131p kontrol etti. Dokuz domdom kur\u015funu olanca h\u0131zlar\u0131yla namluyu terk etmeye haz\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/span><\/p>\n

Silah\u0131 elinde, yataktan kalkt\u0131. \u00d6rt\u00fcl\u00fc perdeleri a\u00e7\u0131p d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bakt\u0131. Dibi maviye boyanm\u0131\u015f k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir havuz. \u00dc\u00e7-be\u015f tane bo\u015f \u015fezlong. Bak\u0131ml\u0131 \u00e7imenler. D\u00f6rtgen \u015feklindeki otelin i\u00e7 duvarlar\u0131. Ortal\u0131kta kimsecikler yoktu.<\/span><\/p>\n

K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck makyaj masas\u0131n\u0131n aynas\u0131nda, anadan \u00fcryan oldu\u011funu fark etti. Gidip kap\u0131y\u0131 kontrol etti. Kilitliydi. Rahat bir nefes al\u0131p tuvalete girdi. Silah\u0131 elinde, i\u015femeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Bir yandan da, acaba neredeyim,<\/em> diye kafas\u0131n\u0131 patlatmaktayd\u0131. Pencereden g\u00f6rd\u00fckleri hi\u00e7bir \u015fey if\u015fa etmemi\u015fti. \u00dc\u00e7 y\u0131ld\u0131zl\u0131 bir oteldeydi. G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc maviydi. Ate\u015f Adalar\u0131\u2019yla Pekin aras\u0131nda herhangi bir yerde olabilirdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Yak\u0131n belle\u011fi tutuktu. Bir s\u00fcre \u00f6nce meydana gelen teknolojik felaket d\u00fcnyay\u0131 temelden de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015fti. Bellekler ans\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7ay s\u00fczgecine d\u00f6n\u00fcveriyordu. Ondan sonra i\u015fin yoksa ka\u00e7an maziyi topla dur.<\/span><\/p>\n

Pierre Tasken\u2019in babas\u0131 bir aralar New York\u2019ta ya\u015fayan Mardinli Ahmet Tasken adl\u0131 bir taksi \u015fof\u00f6r\u00fc, annesi de Colognelu bir Frans\u0131zd\u0131. Babas\u0131yla annesi, adam bir haftal\u0131\u011f\u0131na turist olarak Paris\u2019e geldi\u011finde tan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fc bir ara yak\u0131lan kamu binalar\u0131, ma\u011faza ve arabalarla \u00fcnlenen Paris\u2019in Clichy-sous-Bois adl\u0131 banliy\u00f6s\u00fcnde ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. Frans\u0131zcay\u0131 bir yerliden farks\u0131z konu\u015fmas\u0131 ve annesinin soyad\u0131 sayesinde, Avrupa\u2019da son aylarda patlayan \u00e7alkant\u0131lar\u0131n direkt hedefi olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Babas\u0131 sekiz ya\u015f\u0131ndayken annesini terk edip Kanada\u2019ya, oradan da Burma\u2019ya gidince bir daha adam\u0131 g\u00f6rmemi\u015fti. Sa\u011f olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile bilmiyordu. Genlerinde uyuyan Do\u011fulu ve ser\u00fcvenci yar\u0131 daha ergenlik ya\u015flar\u0131ndayken dirilmi\u015f ve on d\u00f6rd\u00fcnden beri girmedi\u011fi i\u015f kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

On alt\u0131s\u0131nda dahil oldu\u011fu \u00f6rg\u00fct i\u00e7in kokain ka\u00e7ak\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na girmi\u015f ve \u00e7ok paran\u0131n, l\u00fcks hayat\u0131n kollar\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. O teknik ar\u0131za nedeniyle d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u00e7ivisi \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bankadaki kasas\u0131nda 895.000 eurosu olan yirmi sekiz ya\u015f\u0131nda bir delikanl\u0131yd\u0131. Paran\u0131n al\u0131\u015f\u0131ld\u0131k bildik kullan\u0131m \u015fekli ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi ciddi reformlara ra\u011fmen s\u00fcrmekteydi. Yoksa o kadar ki\u015finin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne mal olan kapitali s\u0131f\u0131rlan\u0131p gidecekti.<\/span><\/p>\n

Bulu\u015fma an\u0131 uyar\u0131s\u0131, a\u00e7\u0131k bir camdan ans\u0131z\u0131n i\u00e7eri giren bir e\u015fek ar\u0131s\u0131 gibiydi. \u0130ki arkada\u015f\u0131yla bulu\u015faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. NWA\u2019dan g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fckle s\u0131yr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ve hi\u00e7 kay\u0131p vermemi\u015flerdi, ama bu kez de di\u011fer rakip tak\u0131ma izlerini belli etmi\u015flerdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Pierre h\u0131zla sakal t\u0131ra\u015f\u0131 oldu. Ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 biraz toparlamay\u0131 falan bo\u015fvererek e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7antas\u0131na t\u0131kt\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inden bir ses acele etmesini, arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 bulup bir yerlere sinmesini s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu. Burada tek ba\u015f\u0131na alkolle sarma\u015f dola\u015f s\u0131z\u0131p kalmas\u0131 \u00e7ok ciddi bir hatayd\u0131. Neyse ki rakip tak\u0131mlardan birinin dikkatini \u00e7ekmemi\u015fti. Yoksa \u00e7alkant\u0131l\u0131 hayat\u0131 burada noktalan\u0131r giderdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p hol\u00fc kesti. Solgun \u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 hol sakin bir bekleyi\u015f i\u00e7indeydi. Durup sesleri dinledi. \u00c7\u0131t yoktu. Silah\u0131 muhtemel d\u00fc\u015fmana \u00e7evrili, sol tarafa do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. \u00c7antas\u0131 omzuna \u00e7apraz as\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7indeki sert bir \u015fey ince plastik y\u00fczeyin ard\u0131ndan kal\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 ac\u0131tmaktayd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ini d\u00fczeltmeyi bo\u015fvererek d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan sivri ucun yerini de\u011fi\u015ftirmeyi denedi. Olmu\u015ftu. Daha az bat\u0131yordu art\u0131k.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u0130yi tahmin etmi\u015fti: asans\u00f6r o taraftayd\u0131. Camdan g\u00f6r\u00fcnen manzaray\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. D\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc ya da be\u015finci katta olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Asans\u00f6r\u00fcn \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r d\u00fc\u011fmesi, basmas\u0131na hi\u00e7bir tepki vermedi. Bir daha bast\u0131 ve bekledi. En ufak bir hareket belirmeyince iki metre \u00f6tedeki merdivenlere do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/span><\/p>\n

Kal\u0131n hal\u0131 kapl\u0131 basamaklar\u0131 inerken bir ara dengesini kaybetti. Az kals\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu. H\u00e2l\u00e2 alkol\u00fcn tesirindeydi. Tabancas\u0131n\u0131 beline ili\u015ftirip iki elini de kullan\u0131r duruma getirdi. En alt kata indi\u011finde, d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan gelen belli belirsiz sesleri duydu. Eli silah\u0131na giderken duraklad\u0131. A\u011fz\u0131nda sessiz bir k\u00fcf\u00fcr parlamadan s\u00f6nerken durdu.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cK\u0131m\u0131ldarsan bitiririm.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Kaltak onu bulmu\u015ftu. Terk etti\u011fi odada bir ahmakl\u0131k maketi gibi duran o \u015fi\u015fe ve kutulara lanet olsundu. Alkol\u00fcn h\u0131mb\u0131lla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 etkisi olmasa bu tuza\u011fa asla d\u00fc\u015fmezdi. Di\u011fer yandan, kad\u0131n\u0131n onu hemen vurmamas\u0131na bak\u0131l\u0131rsa a\u011fz\u0131ndan bilgi s\u00f6kmeyi deneyece\u011fi belliydi. \u00c7\u0131kmam\u0131\u015f canda her zaman umut vard\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSilah\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f\u00e7a tut ve yere at.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Pierre siyah sa\u00e7l\u0131, beyaz tenli kad\u0131n\u0131n dediklerine harfiyen uyarak s\u0131rt\u0131ndan \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 indirip yere koydu ve silah\u0131n\u0131 iki metre \u00f6n\u00fcne f\u0131rlatt\u0131. Kad\u0131n yaln\u0131za benziyordu. Bir f\u0131rsat bulup pa\u00e7ay\u0131 y\u0131rtabilirdi. Biraz \u015fansl\u0131ysa iki adam\u0131 \u00e7ok yak\u0131nda olabilirdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130yi mi b\u00f6yle?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131n iri g\u00f6zleri kendinden eminli\u011fin yan\u0131 s\u0131ra derin bir nefret y\u00fckl\u00fcyd\u00fc. Hakl\u0131yd\u0131. Paris\u2019te neredeyse i\u015fini bitirmi\u015fti. D\u00f6rt en yak\u0131n arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ve ciddi bir saha kredisini kaybetmi\u015fti. Her an karn\u0131na s\u0131cak kur\u015fun doldurabilirdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130yi.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Pierre al\u0131c\u0131 g\u00f6zle kad\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fczd\u00fc elinde olmadan. \u0130nce yap\u0131l\u0131, greyfurt memeli bir cins-i latifti. Pierre dar kal\u00e7al\u0131 kad\u0131nlardan ho\u015flanmazd\u0131. B\u00f6yle kendine fazla g\u00fcvenen tiplerden hele hi\u00e7. Ama darac\u0131k pantolonlu, uzun bacakl\u0131 ve k\u0131saca sa\u00e7l\u0131 olan kad\u0131n\u0131 bu \u015fartlar alt\u0131nda bile arzulayan bir yan\u0131 vard\u0131. Namlu karn\u0131na \u00e7evrik durumda, yerdeki silah\u0131 al\u0131rken, u\u00e7uk sar\u0131 ti\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcn\u00fcn yakas\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u00fcnen manzaradan etkilenmi\u015fti. Kad\u0131n silah\u0131n\u0131 belinin kemerine ili\u015ftirirken bu tavr\u0131n\u0131 saptad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 belli eden tiksinti y\u00fckl\u00fc bir bak\u0131\u015f f\u0131rlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Neyse ki bu his b\u00fckl\u00fcm\u00fc tetikteki parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n bask\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 artt\u0131racak \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcde etki yapmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7eriye iki ki\u015fi girince Pierre hayrete kap\u0131ld\u0131. Hi\u00e7 de silah\u015f\u00f6re benzer bir halleri yoktu. Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zlerini namlunun i\u015faret etti\u011fi yerden bir milimetre bile ay\u0131rmadan konu\u015fmas\u0131 bir deneyim \u015faheseriydi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cL\u00fctfen orada durun. Bu sizi ilgilendirmeyen bir mesele. Zarar g\u00f6rmenizi istemem.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n kad\u0131nla \u00f6\u011fretmen tipli adam an\u0131nda durdular. Y\u00fczleri \u00e7eli\u015fkili ifadelerle doluydu, ama bir itaatsizlik yapmaya niyetli g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyorlard\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Pierre bu gelenler y\u00fcz\u00fcnden kad\u0131n\u0131n sorgulama fasl\u0131n\u0131 iptal edece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek hay\u0131fland\u0131. Burada kapatacakt\u0131 defteri. Tam o s\u0131rada i\u00e7eri iki ki\u015fi daha gelince durum iyice karma\u015f\u0131kla\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n namluyla \u2018\u015fu tarafa y\u00fcr\u00fc\u2019 diye i\u015faret edince Pierre son \u015fans\u0131n\u0131 \u0131skalamamak i\u00e7in istenileni hemen yerine getirdi. B\u00f6ylece ad\u0131n\u0131 bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc hat\u0131rlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kad\u0131n bir bak\u0131\u015fta herkesi g\u00f6rebilecek konuma gelmi\u015f oluyordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Yeni gelenler yirmi ba\u015flar\u0131nda bir kad\u0131nla, kendinden emin bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 be\u011fenmedi\u011fi orta ya\u015fl\u0131 bir erkekti. Siyah kot ceket giymi\u015f, geni\u015f omuzlu, kelle\u015fmekte olan uzun boylu adam, kad\u0131n\u0131n yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131 olabilirdi. Patronu hatt\u00e2. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc i\u00e7lerinde sadece onun bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 korku ve \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k y\u00fckl\u00fc de\u011fildi.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Sarp Sapmaz iki yan\u0131nda yemye\u015fil a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n bulundu\u011fu geni\u015f kald\u0131r\u0131ml\u0131 soka\u011fa d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, arad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yere vard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlayarak heyecanland\u0131. Berlin\u2019de Friedrich Soka\u011f\u0131\u2019yla Zimmer Soka\u011f\u0131\u2019n\u0131n kav\u015fa\u011f\u0131nda, \u015fimdiki turistik Charlie noktas\u0131na yak\u0131n duran giri\u015ften en uygun yere \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hissediyordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Kald\u0131r\u0131mda a\u011f\u0131r ad\u0131mlarla y\u00fcr\u00fcrken, ileride sar\u0131 bir araban\u0131n durdu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fc. \u0130\u00e7inden siyah pantolon, kobalt mavisi uzun kollu ti\u015f\u00f6rt giymi\u015f k\u0131saca boylu bir kad\u0131n indi. Sar\u0131 araba, ta\u015f\u0131ma band\u0131 cinsinden bir yap\u0131yd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7indeki iki ki\u015fi de \u00f6yle. Ge\u00e7ici karakterlerdi. Kald\u0131r\u0131mda durmu\u015f ilerideki k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 arabaya bakan gen\u00e7 k\u0131z ise oyuncuydu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sol omzuna as\u0131l\u0131 ti\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fc renginde bir \u00e7anta ta\u015f\u0131yan gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n arabaya y\u00f6neldi\u011finde Sarp ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 h\u0131zland\u0131rd\u0131. O nesne, araba k\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndaki bir felaketti. K\u0131z dokunmakla bile oyundan \u00e7\u0131kabilirdi. Hem de t\u00fcmden iptal edilerek.<\/span><\/p>\n

K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 araba ufak tefek kad\u0131n\u0131n yak\u0131n mazisinden i\u00e7eri s\u0131zm\u0131\u015f uyumsuz bir \u00e7apakt\u0131. Bu \u00e7apaklar\u0131 oyuna neyin dahil etti\u011fi \u00fczerine kesin bir bilgiye sahip de\u011fildi. Her oyun, oyuncular\u0131 eski ya\u015fam\u0131ndan ciddi \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcde kopar\u0131r ve yeniden kurgulanm\u0131\u015f ger\u00e7e\u011fi dayat\u0131rd\u0131. Bu t\u00fcr \u00e7apaklar eskinin direnmesi cinsinden ar\u0131zalard\u0131. Suprime<\/em> Existento<\/em> adl\u0131 katedralin do\u011fal lideri olan Warner Hertzt adl\u0131 Alman sosyolog dostu, bunlar\u0131n d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan kas\u0131tl\u0131 olarak yollanan vir\u00fcsler oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemekteydi. Yeni d\u00fczende eskiye ait her an\u0131 gayet tehlikeli birer vir\u00fcst\u00fc.<\/span><\/p>\n

Bir nokta hayati \u00f6neme sahipti. Bu gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n \u015fimdi iptal edilirse kendi oyun alan\u0131 da bundan etkilenirdi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc burada kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmalar\u0131 bir rastlant\u0131 de\u011fildi. Ayn\u0131 oyuna aittiler. K\u0131z ans\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7\u0131karsa kendisini yeniden Charlie noktas\u0131nda kurulmu\u015f A\u015fk\u0131n Varolu\u015f Katedrali\u2019nde bulabilirdi. Oyun bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131n ayr\u0131nt\u0131y\u0131 g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcne alarak milim milim kurulurdu. Apar topar geri d\u00f6nerse bir sonraki ekibin d\u00fcz\u00fclmesi bir ay s\u00fcrebilirdi. Bu kadar zamanlar\u0131 kalmam\u0131\u015f olabilirdi. D\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc dalga varmadan \u00f6nce bitirici hamleyi kurmak zorundayd\u0131lar.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSak\u0131n dokunmay\u0131n o arabaya.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Kad\u0131n irkilerek durdu ve ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirip bakt\u0131. Yirmi ba\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu, ama bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 \u2018biraz daha ya\u015fl\u0131y\u0131m\u2019 demekteydi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cO sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u015fey de\u011fil.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cNas\u0131l yani?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Sarp arkadan gelen ses \u00fczerine eliyle \u2018bir saniye\u2019 i\u015fareti yapt\u0131. Di\u011fer y\u00f6nden siyah bir limuzin gelerek Haslett Oteli yaz\u0131l\u0131 tabelan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde durmu\u015ftu. \u0130\u00e7inde \u015fof\u00f6r hari\u00e7 \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015fi vard\u0131. \u015eof\u00f6r o arabal\u0131 iki k\u0131z cinsinden u\u00e7ucu bir varl\u0131kt\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7 oyuncu daha gelmi\u015fti. Be\u015finci neredeydi acaba?<\/span><\/p>\n

Tak\u0131m h\u0131zla kurulmaktayd\u0131. \u00d6nce ela g\u00f6zleri endi\u015fe dolu, g\u00fczel y\u00fczl\u00fc kad\u0131n\u0131 kurtarmal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSize mi aitti? Tan\u0131d\u0131k bir araba olmal\u0131.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBizim araba. Kocam ben \u015feydeyken\u2026 Siz\u2026 Nereden?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Bu arada Sarp arabaya iyice yakla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u015eof\u00f6r mahallinde oturan insan\u0131ms\u0131 \u015fey ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirmi\u015f ona bakmaktayd\u0131. Sarp bu t\u00fcr \u00e7apaklar\u0131n benzerlerini g\u00f6rmesine ra\u011fmen adam k\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndaki \u015feyin k\u0131v\u0131r k\u0131v\u0131r yap\u0131s\u0131ndan etkilenmi\u015fti. Rahats\u0131zl\u0131k vericiydi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cHer \u015feyi izah edece\u011fim.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Sa\u011f tekmesini kad\u0131n\u0131n \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 alt\u0131nda araban\u0131n sa\u011f \u00f6n kap\u0131s\u0131na indiriverdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cHaydi yallah.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Kap\u0131s\u0131 az\u0131c\u0131k i\u00e7eri g\u00f6\u00e7en araba titreyince kad\u0131n Sarp\u2019a do\u011fru s\u0131\u00e7rad\u0131 adeta. Sarp ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n en y\u00fcksek noktas\u0131 omzu hizas\u0131nda olan k\u0131z\u0131 belinden tuttu ve, \u201cSakin olun,\u201d dedi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Araba bir kez daha titredi. Bu defa t\u00fcylerindeki suyu silkeleyen bir k\u00f6pe\u011fe benzemi\u015fti. \u0130\u00e7eriden hafif bir m\u00fczik sesi duyulmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7ok tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f bir klasik caz par\u00e7as\u0131yd\u0131. Take<\/em> Five<\/em>. \u015eof\u00f6r hard rock dinliyor gibi sars\u0131lmaktayd\u0131. Ara\u00e7 birden hareket edip yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kad\u0131n protokol\u00fc iyice bo\u015fverip Sarp\u2019a sar\u0131ld\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cAman Allah\u2019\u0131m. Bu o de\u011fil.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Araba titreye sars\u0131la on be\u015f metre \u00f6tedeki k\u00f6\u015feye vard\u0131 ve sa\u011fa d\u00f6nerek g\u00f6zden yitti. G\u00f6zden yitmekle \u00fczerine sald\u0131\u011f\u0131 dalga enerjisi ve sesi t\u00fcmden kesilmi\u015fti. Oyundan defedilmi\u015fti. D\u0131\u015far\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131kmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama. Sarp art\u0131k d\u0131\u015far\u0131s\u0131 diye bir yer olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 iyi bilmekteydi. Oyun kendi i\u00e7ine s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 kapanm\u0131\u015f bir sistemdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Kad\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ekik g\u00f6zleri korku soluyordu. Sarp kad\u0131n\u0131n parf\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc ci\u011ferlerine \u00e7ekerek \u2018\u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclelim\u2019 \u015fekline ge\u00e7ti.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cAd\u0131m Sarp. Sarp Sapmaz.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBenim de Ela.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Kad\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcr dilercesine g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek kollar\u0131ndan s\u0131yr\u0131ld\u0131 ve sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fczeltti. \u00c7ok ho\u015f bir y\u00fcz\u00fc vard\u0131. Etli dudaklar\u0131, b\u00fcy\u00fck\u00e7e a\u011fz\u0131, \u00e7ekik g\u00f6zleriyle latif bir birliktelik olu\u015fturmu\u015ftu.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSoyad\u0131m… K\u00f6\u015feyi d\u00f6nd\u00fc gitti, bo\u015fverin art\u0131k.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Bu \u015fartlar alt\u0131nda bile kendiyle dalga ge\u00e7ebilme yetene\u011fi capcanl\u0131yd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ho\u015flanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Ela Yenisoyad\u0131tazek\u00f6\u015feyid\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f Han\u0131m\u2019dan.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cNe oluyor bitiyor Sarp Bey? Buras\u0131 Antalya falan de\u011fil. Bu a\u011fa\u00e7lar, yol, bu\u2026 Acayip temizlik, bal d\u00f6k yala hali. \u00c7ok\u2026 \u00e7ok manyak\u00e7a bir \u015fey valla.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Sarp duruma uygun k\u0131sa bir \u00f6zet verecekti ki beyninde g\u00f6rsel bir alarm balonu belirdi. \u0130\u00e7eride, Haslett denen yerde bir \u015fey oluyordu. Demin g\u00f6z ucuyla g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc uzun boylu gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n bir haltlar kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmak \u00fczereydi. B\u00fct\u00fcn devreler atabilir ve oyun bir anda kendi i\u00e7ine \u00e7\u00f6kebilirdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cEla Han\u0131m benimle i\u00e7eri gelin. Her \u015feyi izah edece\u011fim.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Sarp kap\u0131ya do\u011fru se\u011firtti\u011finde kad\u0131n hemen onu takip etti. Arkada kalmamas\u0131 iyi olmu\u015ftu. Sarp \u00e7evredeki hi\u00e7bir \u015feyin kararl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00fcvenmemekteydi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cTek bir \u015fey s\u00f6yleyin, yoksa kafay\u0131 bozaca\u011f\u0131m. Buras\u0131 Antalya falan de\u011fil. \u00d6yle de\u011fil mi?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBir \u00e7e\u015fit t\u00fcrev.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cNas\u0131l yani?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cArt\u0131k asl\u0131 de\u011fil.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Kad\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakmadan verdi\u011fi k\u0131sa cevaplar nedeniyle t\u0131rsm\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131, ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 h\u0131zland\u0131rd\u0131 ve i\u00e7ini \u00e7ekerek \u2018\u015fimdilik ba\u015fka soru sormayaca\u011f\u0131m\u2019 sinyalini verdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n kad\u0131nla Amerikal\u0131 oldu\u011fu \u00e7ok belli adam\u0131n aras\u0131ndan ge\u00e7en bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131, g\u00fcl kurusu renkli y\u00fcn bluz giymi\u015f gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131n elindeki tabancay\u0131 ve namlunun ate\u015f kusmak \u00fczere oldu\u011fu gen\u00e7 adam\u0131 kesti. \u0130kisi de vuru\u015fmac\u0131 tipti. Oyuna dahildiler. O sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n kad\u0131n ve Amerikal\u0131 gibi, alt\u0131l\u0131 ekibin asli \u00fcyesiydiler.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cOnu vurursan hepimiz biteriz.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Kad\u0131n k\u00f6k\u00fcne kadar profesyoneldi. Sarp\u2019\u0131 kesen bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 h\u0131zla kurbana y\u00f6nelirken namlu zerre titrememi\u015fti.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBu \u015fahsi bir mesele bay\u0131m. L\u00fctfen kar\u0131\u015fmay\u0131n.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130zah edece\u011fim. L\u00fctfen silah\u0131 indirin. Durum sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z gibi de\u011fil.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Silahs\u0131z olmas\u0131 ve kararl\u0131 tavr\u0131 gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131 etkilemi\u015fti. Sesindeki d\u00fc\u015f\u00fck tehdit tonundan belliydi. \u015eanslar\u0131 vard\u0131. Kad\u0131n \u00f6nce teti\u011fi \u00e7ekip sonra olacaklar\u0131 g\u00f6rmek de isteyebilirdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130zah edin \u00f6nce.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u00d6nce tan\u0131\u015fal\u0131m. Ad\u0131m Sarp Sapmaz.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBenim de Ayl\u0131ca.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBu bey?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cPierre.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBak\u0131n, buras\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z yer de\u011fil. Kurmaca bir mek\u00e2n. Yenili\u011fi ondan. Yaln\u0131z \u00e7ok h\u0131zla kararl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kaybedecek ve bar\u0131n\u0131lamaz hale gelecek. Hepimiz bir oyunun elemanlar\u0131y\u0131z. Oyun boyunca kaderimiz bile\u015fik kaplar gibi birbiriyle ilintili olacak. Bir tek delik toplam enerjimizi bitirebilir. Ortak bir kayra. Oyun kurallar\u0131n\u0131n ilk maddesi de diyebilirsiniz.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBunu nereden biliyorsunuz?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Amerikal\u0131n\u0131n soru sormas\u0131 \u00e7ok iyi olmu\u015ftu. Kad\u0131n di\u011ferlerinin merak ve endi\u015felerinden olumlu etkilenebilirdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBu ilk deneyimim de\u011fil. Siz kimsiniz?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cAd\u0131m Arkon Hillsmith. Astrofizik\u00e7iyim. Son zamanlarda A enerji paketleriyle\u2026 \u015eu anda yanl\u0131\u015f yerde miyiz yani?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBenim ad\u0131m Sarp Sapmaz. Oyun ekibimizin ba\u015f\u0131 benim. Buraya aitsiniz art\u0131k. Sizi ben se\u00e7medim. Bir oyun kuruldu\u011funda ekibin se\u00e7ilmesi, zar atmayla eleman se\u00e7mek cinsinden rasgeledir. Rasgelelik y\u00fczeyseldir tabii. Mutlaka bizi birbirimize ba\u011flayan bir a\u011f mevcuttur. Birinci oyunda ekip bir barda te\u015fkil edildi. \u0130kincide bulu\u015fma yeri bir sineman\u0131n bekleme salonuydu. Bizim i\u00e7in de otel oldu. \u0130lk iki yer ba\u015fka ba\u015fka beldelerdi. Bize buras\u0131, s\u00f6z\u00fcm ona Antalya uygun g\u00f6r\u00fcld\u00fc. Temel kurallar var. Bunlara uymak zorunday\u0131z. Yoksa oyun daha ba\u015ftan kopar. \u00d6len \u00f6l\u00fcr, kalanlar geri d\u00f6ner. Yaln\u0131z geri b\u00f6lge sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zdan \u00e7ok farkl\u0131 bir k\u0131vamda seyretmekte, onu hat\u0131rlatay\u0131m. Bunu yapman\u0131z\u0131 hi\u00e7 tavsiye etmem.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Sarp\u2019\u0131n durumu tane tane izah etmesi \u00e7ok etkili olmu\u015ftu. Kimsede hemen bir \u015fey soracak hal yoktu. Eli tabancal\u0131 kad\u0131n dahil herkes buraya gelme nedenleri \u00fczerine yo\u011funla\u015fm\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Ad\u0131m ad\u0131m ke\u015ffetmeleri gerekli bir bilgi paketiydi bu. \u2018Tekinsizlik \u00f6tesi\u2019 etiketli bir ser\u00fcvenin ilk ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 atmaktayd\u0131lar hen\u00fcz.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Edit\u00f6r:<\/strong> Ozancan Demir\u0131\u015f\u0131k<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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