{"id":32263,"date":"2014-03-07T17:55:41","date_gmt":"2014-03-07T15:55:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.kayiprihtim.org\/portal\/?page_id=32263"},"modified":"2014-03-07T17:56:47","modified_gmt":"2014-03-07T15:56:47","slug":"wool-serisi-1-silo-on-okuma","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.kayiprihtim.org\/portal\/on-okumalar\/wool-serisi-1-silo-on-okuma\/","title":{"rendered":"Wool Serisi 1: Silo | \u00d6n Okuma"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\n\n
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S\u0130LO<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

Hugh Howey<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

B\u0130R\u0130NC\u0130 B\u00d6L\u00dcM<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

HOLSTON<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

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Holston, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne giden yolda basamaklar\u0131 bir bir t\u0131rman\u0131rken, \u00e7ocuklar En-Tepe\u2019de habersizce oyun oynamaya devam ediyorlard\u0131; sadece mutlu \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n yapabilece\u011fi bir bi\u00e7imde ba\u011fr\u0131\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 duyabiliyordu. Onlar hemen yukar\u0131s\u0131nda deliler gibi tepinirken usul usul \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 basamaklar\u0131 Holston. Sarmal merdiveni d\u00fczenli ve hantal ad\u0131mlarla t\u0131rman\u0131rken eskimi\u015f botlar\u0131 metal basamaklar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131nlat\u0131yordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

T\u0131pk\u0131 babas\u0131ndan kalan botlar\u0131 gibi basamaklar da a\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k izleri g\u00f6steriyordu. Boyalar genellikle k\u00f6\u015felerine ve alt y\u00fczeylerine, yani daha az temas g\u00f6ren yerlerine k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck par\u00e7alar h\u00e2linde tutunabilmi\u015fti. Merdivenin ba\u015fka bir yerindeki trafik, titre\u015fen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck toz bulutlar\u0131n\u0131n kalkmas\u0131na sebep oldu. Holston, a\u015f\u0131nmaktan par\u0131ldayan metal t\u0131rabzanlardaki titre\u015fimleri hissedebiliyordu. Y\u00fczlerce y\u0131l boyunca t\u0131rabzana temas eden \u00e7\u0131plak ellerin ve basamaklar\u0131 t\u0131rmanan ayaklar\u0131n kat\u0131 \u00e7eli\u011fi b\u00f6ylesine kolayca a\u015f\u0131nd\u0131rabilmesi onu her zaman \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Her defas\u0131nda tek bir molek\u00fcl a\u015f\u0131n\u0131yordur herh\u00e2lde, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Hatta her ya\u015fam bir katman\u0131 a\u015f\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131yordu belki; e\u015fzamanl\u0131 olarak silo da o ya\u015famlar\u0131 a\u015f\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131rken tabii.<\/span><\/p>\n

Her bir basamak \u00fcst\u00fcnden ge\u00e7mi\u015f nesillerce peyderpey yamultulmu\u015f, k\u00f6\u015feleri t\u0131pk\u0131 somurtan bir dudak gibi a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 do\u011fru b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Bir zamanlar basamaklara daha iyi bir tutu\u015f sa\u011flayan karo bi\u00e7imindeki ufak kabart\u0131lardan neredeyse eser kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Eksiklikleri sadece sac\u0131n her iki yan\u0131ndaki motiflerden, yani d\u00fcz \u00e7elikten y\u00fckselen, \u00fczerlerinde boya k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 ile k\u0131vr\u0131k kenarlar bulunan piramidimsi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck t\u00fcmseklerden anla\u015f\u0131labiliyordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston eski botlar\u0131ndan birini eski bir basama\u011fa do\u011fru kald\u0131rd\u0131, bast\u0131 ve bu hareketini yineledi. Say\u0131s\u0131z y\u0131llar\u0131n yapt\u0131klar\u0131na, ya\u015famlara ve molek\u00fcllerin a\u015f\u0131nmas\u0131na, kat kat ince toz tabakalar\u0131na dair derin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere dald\u0131. Ve kim bilir ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 kez ne ya\u015fam\u0131n ne de merdivenlerin b\u00f6yle bir varolu\u015f i\u00e7in yarat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Topra\u011fa g\u00f6m\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f silo boyunca t\u0131pk\u0131 bir barda\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ine konan kam\u0131\u015f misali ilerleyen bu uzun sarmal\u0131n dar s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131 b\u00f6ylesine bir k\u00f6t\u00fcye kullan\u0131m i\u00e7in in\u015fa edilmemi\u015fti. Silindir bi\u00e7imindeki evlerinin \u00e7o\u011fu gibi o da ba\u015fka ama\u00e7lar, uzun zaman \u00f6nce unutulmu\u015f i\u015flevler i\u00e7in in\u015fa edilmi\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. \u015eimdilerde g\u00fcnde binlerce insan\u0131n g\u00fcnl\u00fck i\u015flerini halletmek amac\u0131yla bir yukar\u0131 bir a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 t\u0131rmand\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu merdiven Holston\u2019a kalsa sadece acil durumlarda ve belki de yaln\u0131zca birka\u00e7 d\u00fczine insan taraf\u0131ndan kullan\u0131lmal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Bir kat\u0131 daha geride b\u0131rakt\u0131, pasta dilimi bi\u00e7imindeki yatakhaneler b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcyd\u00fc bu. Holston geriye kalan birka\u00e7 kat\u0131 hayat\u0131nda son defa t\u0131rman\u0131rken yukar\u0131dan gelen, \u00e7ocuklara \u00f6zg\u00fc mutluluk seslerinin \u015fiddeti artt\u0131. Gen\u00e7li\u011fin, ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 yerin zorluklar\u0131yla hen\u00fcz y\u00fczle\u015fmemi\u015f ruhlar\u0131n, topra\u011f\u0131n d\u00f6rt bir yandan yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bask\u0131y\u0131 hen\u00fcz hissetmeyenlerin, zihinlerinde tamamen g\u00f6m\u00fclmemi\u015f olanlar\u0131n, yani h\u00e2l\u00e2 ya\u015fayan<\/i> ki\u015filerin kahkahas\u0131yd\u0131 bu. Hayat dolu ve hen\u00fcz y\u0131pranmam\u0131\u015f ne\u015feli sesler merdivenlerden a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 ya\u011farken yaratt\u0131klar\u0131 titre\u015fimler Holston\u2019\u0131n d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya<\/i> \u00e7\u0131kma konusundaki eylemlerine, karar\u0131na ve azmine ayk\u0131r\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Son kata ula\u015fmas\u0131na ramak kala seslerden biri di\u011ferlerini bast\u0131rd\u0131 ve Holston siloda bir \u00e7ocuk olman\u0131n nas\u0131l bir \u015fey oldu\u011funu, t\u00fcm o e\u011fitimleri ve oyunlar\u0131 an\u0131msad\u0131. O zamanlar bu bo\u011fucu beton silindir pek \u00e7ok katta yer alan daireleri, at\u00f6lyeleri, hidrofonik bah\u00e7eleri[1]<\/a><\/sup> ve karmakar\u0131\u015f\u0131k borular\u0131 olan ar\u0131tma odalar\u0131yla u\u00e7suz bucaks\u0131z bir evren, tamam\u0131n\u0131 asla ke\u015ffedemeyece\u011fi kadar geni\u015f bir alan, arkada\u015flar\u0131yla sonsuza kadar kaybolabilece\u011fi bir labirent gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc g\u00f6z\u00fcne.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ancak o g\u00fcnlerin \u00fczerinden otuz y\u0131ldan fazla zaman ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. Holston\u2019\u0131n \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu ona iki ya da \u00fc\u00e7 \u00f6m\u00fcr uzakl\u0131kta gibiydi art\u0131k; b\u00fct\u00fcn o mutlu hat\u0131ralar\u0131 ba\u015fka birileri ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 sanki. O de\u011fil. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fini bloke etmi\u015f, b\u00fct\u00fcn hayat\u0131n\u0131 \u015ferif r\u00fctbesinin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda ge\u00e7irmi\u015fti. Son zamanlardaysa hayat\u0131n\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc evresini ya\u015f\u0131yordu \u2013 \u00e7ocuklu\u011fun ve \u015ferif olman\u0131n \u00f6tesinde, gizli bir hayat. Bu, toza d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmeden \u00f6nceki son katman\u0131yd\u0131; hi\u00e7bir zaman ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmeyecek bir \u015fey i\u00e7in \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l boyunca sessizce beklemi\u015fti; bekleyi\u015finin her bir g\u00fcn\u00fc, mutlu g\u00fcnlerinin bir ay\u0131na bedeldi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sarmal merdivenin doru\u011funda Holston\u2019\u0131n t\u0131rabzan\u0131 tutan eli bo\u015fa \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. A\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015f ve e\u011fimli \u00e7elik parmakl\u0131k sona ererken, basamaklar da t\u00fcm silo tesisinin en geni\u015f iki b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne, yani kafeteryaya ve biti\u015fi\u011findeki salona do\u011fru bo\u015fald\u0131. Art\u0131k co\u015fkulu ba\u011fr\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131n kayna\u011f\u0131yla ayn\u0131 kattayd\u0131. Ok gibi ko\u015fturan ne\u015feli \u015fekiller, etrafa sa\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f sandalyelerin aras\u0131nda zikzaklar \u00e7izip kovalamaca oynuyorlard\u0131. Bir avu\u00e7 yeti\u015fkinse bu kaos ortam\u0131n\u0131 kontrol alt\u0131na almaya \u00e7abal\u0131yordu. Donna\u2019n\u0131n lekeli fayanslar\u0131n \u00fczerine sa\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f tebe\u015firleri ve pastel boyalar\u0131 toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc Holston. Kocas\u0131 Clarke ise meyve suyu bardaklar\u0131n\u0131n ve m\u0131s\u0131r unundan kurabiyelerin bulundu\u011fu k\u00e2selerin kaplad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir masan\u0131n arkas\u0131nda oturuyordu. Clarke odan\u0131n \u00f6b\u00fcr ucundan Holston\u2019a el sallad\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermeye yeltenmedi, bunun i\u00e7in ne g\u00fcc\u00fc vard\u0131 ne de iste\u011fi. Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 yeti\u015fkinleri ve oyun oynayan \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 ge\u00e7ip projekt\u00f6rler vas\u0131tas\u0131yla kafeterya duvar\u0131na yans\u0131t\u0131lan bulan\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcye kayd\u0131. Ya\u015fama elveri\u015fsiz d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n\u0131n en geni\u015f ve kesintisiz manzaras\u0131yd\u0131 bu. Bir sabah manzaras\u0131. \u015eafak vaktinin lo\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 Holston\u2019\u0131n \u00e7ocuklu\u011fundan bu yana neredeyse hi\u00e7bir de\u011fi\u015fiklik g\u00f6stermemi\u015f cans\u0131z tepelerin \u00fczerini kapl\u0131yordu. Holston kafeterya masalar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda kovalamaca oynamay\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131p \u015fimdi oldu\u011fu i\u00e7i bo\u015f ki\u015fiye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fene dek ge\u00e7en s\u00fcre boyunca o tepeler daima ayn\u0131 yerde olmu\u015flard\u0131. Zirvelerinin g\u00f6rkemli k\u0131vr\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6tesinde, tan\u0131d\u0131k ve \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f bir \u015fehrin ufuktaki silueti sabah \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n c\u0131l\u0131z \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yakalad\u0131. Bir zamanlar topra\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerinde ya\u015famak i\u00e7in insanlar taraf\u0131ndan kullan\u0131ld\u0131klar\u0131 rivayet edilen bu kadim cam ve \u00e7elik kal\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 uzakta \u00f6ylece durmaktayd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Grubun aras\u0131ndan kuyrukluy\u0131ld\u0131z misali f\u0131rlayan bir \u00e7ocuk Holston\u2019\u0131n dizlerine toslad\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fen adam Susan\u2019\u0131n o\u011flu oldu\u011funu bildi\u011fi ufakl\u0131\u011fa dokunmak i\u00e7in uzand\u0131, fakat \u00e7ocuk tekrar bir kuyrukluy\u0131ld\u0131z gibi f\u0131rlad\u0131 ve bir kez daha di\u011ferlerinin y\u00f6r\u00fcngesine oturdu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston\u2019\u0131n akl\u0131na aniden Allison\u2019\u0131n \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc y\u0131l kazand\u0131klar\u0131 \u00e7ekili\u015f geldi. Bileti h\u00e2l\u00e2 sakl\u0131yor, gitti\u011fi her yere onu da g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. Bu \u00e7ocuklardan biri onlar\u0131n olabilirdi, belki k\u0131z belki erkek\u2026 Hatta \u015fimdiye dek iki ya\u015f\u0131na basabilir ve ya\u015f\u00e7a ondan b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n arkas\u0131ndan emekleyerek gidebilirdi. Di\u011fer b\u00fct\u00fcn ebeveynler gibi onlar da ikiz hayalleri kurmu\u015flard\u0131. Denemi\u015flerdi de elbette. Allison\u2019\u0131n implant\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131ld\u0131ktan sonra \u00fcst \u00fcste g\u00f6rkemli geceler ge\u00e7irmi\u015f ve biletin kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. \u00c7ocuklu \u00e7iftler onlara \u015fans dilerken ikramiye bekleyen di\u011fer \u00e7iftlerse verimsiz bir y\u0131l ge\u00e7irmeleri i\u00e7in sessizce dualar etmi\u015flerdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Yaln\u0131zca bir y\u0131llar\u0131n\u0131n oldu\u011funu bildiklerinden Allison ile birlikte bat\u0131l inan\u00e7lar\u0131 da hayatlar\u0131na davet etmi\u015fler, bu u\u011furda yard\u0131mc\u0131 olabilecek her \u015feyi denemi\u015flerdi. Do\u011furganl\u0131\u011f\u0131 art\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 rivayet edildi\u011fi i\u00e7in yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne sar\u0131msak asmak gibi numaralar, ikiz \u00e7ocuk sahibi olabilmek i\u00e7in d\u00f6\u015fe\u011fin alt\u0131na iki tane jeton koymak, Allison\u2019\u0131n sa\u00e7\u0131na pembe kurdele takmas\u0131, Holston\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinin alt\u0131na mavi boya s\u00fcrmesi gibi tamam\u0131 sa\u00e7ma, \u00fcmitsiz ve e\u011flenceli birtak\u0131m tertiplerdi bunlar. Ancak bunlardan daha da delice bir \u015fey varsa o da her \u015feyi denememek<\/i>, test edilmemi\u015f herhangi bir aptalca seans\u0131 ya da rivayeti atlamak olurdu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ama beklenen bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmemi\u015fti. Daha onlara tan\u0131nan bir y\u0131ll\u0131k s\u00fcre sona ermeden ikramiye ba\u015fka bir \u00e7ifte devretmi\u015fti. Her \u015feyi denemedikleri i\u00e7in de\u011fil, yeterince zamanlar\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan dolay\u0131. Ani bir e\u015f eksikli\u011finden <\/i>dolay\u0131\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston oyunlar\u0131 ve bulan\u0131k manzaray\u0131 arkas\u0131nda b\u0131rak\u0131p kafeterya ile silonun bas\u0131n\u00e7 odas\u0131 aras\u0131nda kalan ofisine do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Y\u00fcr\u00fcrken kafas\u0131 bir zamanlar orada ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f bir bo\u011fu\u015fmaya gitti; son \u00fc\u00e7 senedir her g\u00fcn y\u00fczle\u015fmek zorunda kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 hayaletlerin bo\u011fu\u015fmalar\u0131na. Ve e\u011fer arkas\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcp duvardaki o devasa g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcy\u00fc ara\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rsa, g\u00f6zlerini k\u0131s\u0131p g\u00fcnbeg\u00fcn daha da k\u00f6t\u00fcle\u015fen bulan\u0131k ve dalgal\u0131 kamera lenslerinin \u00f6tesini, havada as\u0131l\u0131 duran pislik birikintisinin ard\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rsa, \u00e7amursu kum tepeci\u011finin \u00fczerinden ge\u00e7ip ard\u0131ndaki \u015fehre do\u011fru uzanan siyah k\u0131vr\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6zleriyle dikkatlice takip ederse e\u015finin suspus bedenini se\u00e7ebilece\u011fini biliyordu. Orada, o tepede, e\u015fini g\u00f6rebilirdiniz. Uykuya dalm\u0131\u015f b\u00fcy\u00fck bir kaya par\u00e7as\u0131 gibi boylu boyunca yat\u0131yordu, kollar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndayd\u0131, hava ve toksinlere teslimdi bedeni.<\/span><\/p>\n

Belki.<\/span><\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc bulan\u0131kla\u015fmaya ba\u015flamadan \u00f6nce bile g\u00f6rmek zor, \u015fekilleri birbirinden ay\u0131rt etmek g\u00fc\u00e7t\u00fc. Hem zaten bu g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcye de pek g\u00fcven olmazd\u0131. Hatta ku\u015fkulan\u0131lacak yan\u0131 daha \u00e7oktu. Bu y\u00fczden bakmamay\u0131 tercih etti Holston. E\u015finin bir hayalet gibi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu, k\u00f6t\u00fc hat\u0131ralar\u0131n topland\u0131\u011f\u0131, kad\u0131n\u0131n cinnet an\u0131na sahne olmu\u015f o yerden ge\u00e7ip ofisine girdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cOoo, bak\u0131n kimler erkenciymi\u015f?\u201d dedi Marnes, g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek.<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston\u2019\u0131n yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131 dosya dolab\u0131n\u0131n metal \u00e7ekmecelerinden birini kaparken eskimi\u015f mafsallardan cans\u0131z bir \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k y\u00fckseldi. Duman\u0131 t\u00fcten bir kahve fincan\u0131n\u0131 eline ald\u0131ktan sonra Holston\u2019\u0131n ciddi tav\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 fark etti. \u201c\u0130yisin ya \u015fef?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston ba\u015f\u0131yla onaylad\u0131. Parma\u011f\u0131yla masan\u0131n ard\u0131ndaki anahtar ask\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 i\u015faret etti. \u201cNezarethane,\u201d dedi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u015eerif Yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131\u2019n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme yerini \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n bir ka\u015f \u00e7at\u0131\u015fa b\u0131rakt\u0131. Kupay\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131p anahtara uzanmak \u00fczere arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Marnes\u2019\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fckken Holston avucunun i\u00e7indeki keskin u\u00e7lu, so\u011fuk metali son bir defa ok\u015fad\u0131 ve \u015ferif y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 masan\u0131n \u00fczerine d\u00fcz bir bi\u00e7imde b\u0131rakt\u0131. Marnes d\u00f6nd\u00fc ve anahtar\u0131 uzatt\u0131. Holston da ald\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cPaspas\u0131 kap\u0131p geleyim mi?\u201d dedi yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131, ba\u015fparma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kafeteryan\u0131n bulundu\u011fu b\u00f6l\u00fcme do\u011fru sallayarak. Tutuklu biri olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcrece nezarethaneye yaln\u0131zca temizlik i\u00e7in girerlerdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cHay\u0131r,\u201d dedi Holston. Kafas\u0131n\u0131 h\u00fccrenin oldu\u011fu tarafa do\u011fru sallayarak yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131na kendisini takip etmesini i\u015faret etti.<\/span><\/p>\n

Arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fc, Marnes ona kat\u0131lmak i\u00e7in aya\u011fa kalkarken masan\u0131n arkas\u0131ndaki sandalye g\u0131c\u0131rdad\u0131. Holston y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc tamam\u0131na erdirdi. Anahtar, yuvas\u0131na g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fck \u00e7\u0131karmadan yerle\u015fti. Kap\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fczg\u00fcn ve bak\u0131ml\u0131 i\u00e7 aksamlar\u0131ndan keskin bir klak<\/i> sesi y\u00fckseldi, mente\u015feler kuru bir \u015fekilde g\u0131c\u0131rdad\u0131, kararl\u0131 bir ad\u0131m at\u0131ld\u0131, bir ittiri\u015f ve bir tang\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131ndan \u00e7ile sona erdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u015eef?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston parmakl\u0131klar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan anahtar\u0131 uzatt\u0131. Marnes anahtara \u015f\u00fcpheyle bakt\u0131, sonra da raz\u0131 olup avucunu a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cNeler oluyor \u015fef?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBa\u015fkan\u0131 getir,\u201d dedi Holston. Derin bir nefes verdi, \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131ld\u0131r i\u00e7inde tuttu\u011fu bir soluktu bu. \u201cOna d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmak istedi\u011fimi s\u00f6yle.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

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<\/b>Nezarethanedeki g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc kafeteryadaki kadar bulan\u0131k de\u011fildi ve Holston silodaki son g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek ge\u00e7irdi. O taraftaki kamera toksik r\u00fczg\u00e2rlara kar\u015f\u0131 korumal\u0131 olabilir miydi? \u00d6l\u00fcm cezas\u0131na \u00e7arpt\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f her temizlik\u00e7i ya\u015famlar\u0131n\u0131n son g\u00fcn\u00fcnde tad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131klar\u0131 manzara i\u00e7in daha m\u0131 fazla \u00f6zen g\u00f6stermi\u015fti? Yoksa bu ekstra \u00e7aba, ayn\u0131 h\u00fccrede son g\u00fcnlerini ge\u00e7irecek olan bir sonraki <\/i>temizlik\u00e7i i\u00e7in bir hediye miydi?<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston son se\u00e7ene\u011fi tercih etti. Bu fikir kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zlemle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmesine sebep oldu. Neden kendi iste\u011fiyle orada, parmakl\u0131klar\u0131n ters taraf\u0131nda oldu\u011funu hat\u0131rlatt\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri Allison\u2019a kayarken oturup eski insanlar\u0131n geride b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fc d\u00fcnyay\u0131 seyretti. Yeralt\u0131na g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc s\u0131\u011f\u0131naklar\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u00fclen en iyi manzara de\u011fildi bu, ama en k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fc de de\u011fildi. Al\u00e7ak ve engebeli tepeler ufukta enfes kahverengi g\u00f6lgeler olu\u015fturuyordu; i\u00e7ine tam k\u0131vam\u0131nda domuz s\u00fct\u00fc kat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kahve ezmesi rengindeydiler. Tepelerin \u00fczerindeki g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fundaki, babas\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ocuklu\u011fundaki ve b\u00fcy\u00fckbabas\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ocuklu\u011fundaki g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcyle ayn\u0131 donuk gri rengi payla\u015f\u0131yordu. Arazide hareket eden tek \u015fey bulutlard\u0131. Koyu ve kapkara bir bi\u00e7imde tepelerin \u00fczerine as\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131lar. Resimli \u00e7ocuk kitaplar\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc s\u00fcr\u00fc h\u00e2linde gezen yarat\u0131klar gibi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde \u00f6zg\u00fcrce dola\u015f\u0131yorlard\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

T\u0131pk\u0131 silonun \u00fcst katlar\u0131ndaki b\u00fct\u00fcn duvarlarda oldu\u011fu gibi \u00f6l\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc h\u00fccre duvar\u0131n\u0131n tamam\u0131n\u0131 kapl\u0131yordu, her biri bulan\u0131k \u00e7orak topraklar\u0131n ve \u00f6tesindeki daha da bulan\u0131k arazinin farkl\u0131 bir par\u00e7as\u0131yla doluydu. Bu g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcden Holston\u2019\u0131n pay\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck par\u00e7a, karyolas\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6\u015fesinden ba\u015flay\u0131p tavana kadar uzan\u0131yor, oradan yatay olarak kar\u015f\u0131 duvara ge\u00e7iyor ve gerisin geri tuvaletin \u00fczerine iniyordu. Ve hafif bulan\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131na ra\u011fmen \u2013 sanki kameran\u0131n lensi ya\u011fla ovulmu\u015f gibiydi \u2013 i\u00e7inde dola\u015fabilece\u011finiz bir manzaraya benziyordu; tuhaf bir \u015fekilde insan\u0131 i\u00e7eri hapseden parmakl\u0131klar\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda konumland\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, ard\u0131na kadar a\u00e7\u0131k ve davetk\u00e2r bir delik gibi duruyordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Gel gelelim bu g\u00f6z yan\u0131lmas\u0131 yaln\u0131zca belirli bir uzakl\u0131ktayken inand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131yd\u0131. Holston biraz daha \u00f6ne e\u011fildi\u011finde devasa g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fczerindeki bir avu\u00e7 \u00f6l\u00fc pikseli se\u00e7ebiliyordu. T\u00fcm kahverengi ve gri tonlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda keskin bir beyazl\u0131klar\u0131 vard\u0131. \u015eiddetli bir yo\u011funlukta par\u0131ldayan her bir piksel (Allison onlara \u201cmahsur\u201d pikseller ad\u0131n\u0131 vermi\u015fti) daha ayd\u0131nl\u0131k diyarlara a\u00e7\u0131lan d\u00f6rt k\u00f6\u015feli bir pencere, daha iyi bir ger\u00e7ekli\u011fe i\u015faret eden insan sa\u00e7\u0131 eninde bir delik gibiydi. Bir s\u00fcr\u00fc vard\u0131; \u015fimdi yak\u0131ndan inceledi\u011finde daha net g\u00f6rebiliyordu. Holston, siloda bunlar\u0131n nas\u0131l tamir edilece\u011fini bilen birinin olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ya da b\u00f6ylesine hassas bir i\u015f i\u00e7in gerekli alet edevat\u0131n ellerinde bulunup bulunmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 merak etti. Yoksa sonsuza dek \u00f6l\u00fc m\u00fc kalacaklard\u0131? T\u0131pk\u0131 Allison gibi? B\u00fct\u00fcn pikseller \u00f6n\u00fcnde sonunda \u00f6l\u00fcr m\u00fcyd\u00fc? Holston piksellerin yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n bembeyaz oldu\u011fu bir g\u00fcn canland\u0131rd\u0131 kafas\u0131nda, ard\u0131ndan birka\u00e7 nesil sonra sadece az say\u0131da gri ve kahverengi pikselin kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, sonra da bu say\u0131n\u0131n bir d\u00fczineden aza d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc hayal etti. D\u00fcnya gri ve kahverengi tonlar\u0131ndan ar\u0131n\u0131p yeni bir g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcme b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcrken, silo sakinleri d\u0131\u015far\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131p kavruldu\u011funu hayal edecek, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan pikselleri \u00f6l\u00fc piksellerden ay\u0131rt edemeyeceklerdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Yoksa Holston\u2019un ve halk\u0131n\u0131n \u015fu anda yapmakta olduklar\u0131 \u015fey zaten bu muydu?<\/span><\/p>\n

Arkas\u0131nda biri bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 temizledi. Holston d\u00f6nd\u00fc ve parmakl\u0131klar\u0131n di\u011fer taraf\u0131nda duran Ba\u015fkan Jahns\u2019\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Kad\u0131n ellerini i\u015f tulumunun kar\u0131n k\u0131sm\u0131nda kavu\u015fturmu\u015ftu, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ciddi bir ifadeyle karyolaya do\u011fru sallad\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cH\u00fccre bo\u015f oldu\u011funda, senin ve \u015eerif Yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131 Marnes\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6rev saatleri d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndaki gecelerde ben de bazen orada oturup manzaran\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yorum.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston pis ve cans\u0131z manzaraya g\u00f6z gezdirmek \u00fczere yeniden arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fc. \u0130syandan kurtulabilen tek kitap t\u00fcr\u00fc olan \u00e7ocuk kitaplar\u0131ndaki resimlerle k\u0131yasland\u0131\u011f\u0131nda olduk\u00e7a i\u00e7 karart\u0131c\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. \u00c7o\u011fu insan o kitaplardaki renklere \u015f\u00fcpheyle yakla\u015f\u0131yordu, t\u0131pk\u0131 mor filler ve pembe ku\u015flar\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131ndan \u015f\u00fcphe duyduklar\u0131 gibi; fakat Holston onlar\u0131n \u015fu \u00f6n\u00fcndeki manzaradan daha ger\u00e7ek olduklar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. T\u0131pk\u0131 ba\u015fkalar\u0131 gibi o da ye\u015file ve maviye bulanm\u0131\u015f o eski sayfalara bakarken esasl\u0131, derin bir \u015feyler hissediyordu. Buna ra\u011fmen bo\u011fucu silo ile kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki bulan\u0131k gri manzara bir t\u00fcr kurtulu\u015f, tam da insanlar\u0131n solumak i\u00e7in do\u011fdu\u011fu a\u00e7\u0131k hava gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBuradan her zaman biraz daha temiz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr,\u201d dedi Jahns. \u201cManzara yani.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston s\u00fck\u00fbnetini korudu. K\u0131v\u0131r k\u0131v\u0131r bir bulut par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n kopup farkl\u0131 bir y\u00f6ne do\u011fru s\u00fcr\u00fckleni\u015fini, siyah ve gri renklerinin d\u00f6nerek birbirlerine kar\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 izledi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cAk\u015fam yeme\u011fi i\u00e7in istedi\u011fin \u015feyi se\u00e7ebilirsin,\u201d dedi Ba\u015fkan. \u201cBu geleneksel\u2013 \u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBana bu i\u015flerin nas\u0131l y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc anlatmana gerek yok,\u201d dedi Holston, Jahns\u2019\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc keserek. \u201cBurada Allison\u2019a son yeme\u011fini verdi\u011fim g\u00fcnden bu yana yaln\u0131zca 3 y\u0131l ge\u00e7ti.\u201d Al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131kla, eliyle parma\u011f\u0131ndaki bak\u0131r y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6nd\u00fcrmeye yeltendi; onu saatler \u00f6nce \u015fifonyerin \u00fczerinde b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 unutmu\u015ftu.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cO kadar uzun zaman ge\u00e7ti\u011fine inanam\u0131yorum,\u201d diye m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131 Jahns kendi kendine. Holston ona do\u011fru d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde Jahns\u2019\u0131 g\u00f6zlerini k\u0131sm\u0131\u015f bir h\u00e2lde duvardaki bulutlar\u0131 seyrederken buldu.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cOnu \u00f6zl\u00fcyor musun?\u201d diye sordu Holston, kindar bir \u015fekilde. \u201cYoksa sadece bu bulan\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ekran\u0131 kaplamak i\u00e7in bunca zaman kazanm\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131 m\u0131 can\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131yor?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Jahns\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zleri bir anl\u0131\u011f\u0131na parlad\u0131, ard\u0131ndan bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 zemine \u00e7evirdi. \u201cBunu yapmak istemedi\u011fimi biliyorsun, hem de hi\u00e7bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc pahas\u0131na. Ama kural kurald\u0131r\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSu\u00e7lam\u0131\u015f olmak i\u00e7in s\u00f6ylemiyorum,\u201d dedi Holston, \u00f6fkesini yat\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak. \u201cKurallar\u0131 buradaki \u00e7o\u011fu ki\u015fiden daha iyi biliyorum.\u201d Eli, hafif\u00e7e yerinde olmayan, t\u0131pk\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fc gibi geride b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 rozetine gider gibi oldu. \u201cLanet olsun, hayat\u0131m\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck bir b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnde o kurallar\u0131 bizzat uygulad\u0131m, hatta onlar\u0131n be\u015f para etmez kurallar olduklar\u0131n\u0131 fark etti\u011fim g\u00fcnden sonra bile.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Jahns bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 temizledi. \u201cPek\u00e2l\u00e2, sana neden bu yolu se\u00e7ti\u011fini sormayaca\u011f\u0131m. Sadece burada kal\u0131rsan daha mutsuz olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 varsayaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston\u2019\u0131n bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 Ba\u015fkan\u2019\u0131nkilerle bulu\u015ftu ve kad\u0131n g\u00f6zlerini k\u0131rp\u0131p kafas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7eviremeden \u00f6nce oradaki ince s\u0131v\u0131 tabakay\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Jahns g\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00e7 ve bol tulumunun i\u00e7inde her zamankinden daha da zay\u0131f g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Boynundaki \u00e7izgiler ve g\u00f6zlerinin \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 an\u0131msad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan daha derindi. Daha koyu. Ve sesindeki \u00e7atlama sahici bir pi\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcyd\u00fc; ya\u015fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n ya da pay\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fen t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn de\u011fil.<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston ans\u0131z\u0131n kendisini Jahns\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinden g\u00f6rd\u00fc; eski bir bankta oturan, \u00f6l\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n solgun par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 tenini griye boyam\u0131\u015f, y\u0131k\u0131k bir adam. Bu g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc g\u00f6zlerinin kararmas\u0131na neden oldu. Ba\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6nerken tutunabilece\u011fi makul bir \u015fey, bir anlam ifade eden herhangi bir \u015fey arand\u0131. Hayat\u0131n\u0131n toslad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu \u00e7\u0131kmaz sokak bir r\u00fcya gibiydi. Son \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131ld\u0131r hi\u00e7bir \u015fey ger\u00e7ek gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnmemi\u015fti zaten. Art\u0131k hi\u00e7bir \u015fey ger\u00e7ek g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yeniden karanl\u0131k tepelere do\u011fru \u00e7evirdi. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ucuyla bir ba\u015fka pikselin parlak beyaza d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ferek \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne \u015fahit oldu\u011funu sand\u0131. Bir ba\u015fka minik pencere daha aralanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131; giderek \u015f\u00fcphelenmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir g\u00f6z yan\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde bir ba\u015fka net g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc.<\/span><\/p>\n

Yar\u0131n benim kurtulu\u015fum olacak, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc Holston ac\u0131mas\u0131zca, orada \u00f6lsem bile.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u00c7ok uzun s\u00fcredir ba\u015fkanl\u0131k yap\u0131yorum,\u201d dedi Jahns.<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston kafas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirip arkas\u0131na bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Ba\u015fkan\u2019\u0131n buru\u015fuk ellerinin so\u011fuk demir parmakl\u0131klara doland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cAr\u015fivlerimiz ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 tarihine kadar uzanm\u0131yor, biliyorsun. Bir bu\u00e7uk as\u0131r \u00f6nce ya\u015fanan isyandan evvel neler ya\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilemiyoruz, ancak o d\u00f6nemden bu yana hi\u00e7bir ba\u015fkan temizli\u011fe benim kadar insan g\u00f6ndermek zorunda kalmad\u0131.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSana y\u00fck oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in \u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcm,\u201d dedi Holston duygusuzca.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBundan keyif alm\u0131yorum. Tek s\u00f6yleyebilece\u011fim bu. Hem de hi\u00e7.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston eliyle devasa ekran\u0131 siler gibi yapt\u0131. \u201cAma yar\u0131n gece g\u00fcnbat\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 tertemiz bir \u015fekilde izleyecek ilk ki\u015fi sen olacaks\u0131n, de\u011fil mi?\u201d Kendi sesindeki imadan tiksindi. Holston ne \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne, ne ya\u015fam\u0131na, ne de yar\u0131ndan sonra ba\u015f\u0131na gelecek olan \u015feye k\u0131zg\u0131nd\u0131; ama Allison\u2019\u0131n ak\u0131betine duydu\u011fu \u00f6fke h\u00e2l\u00e2 ge\u00e7memi\u015fti. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fteki ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmaz olaylar\u0131, \u00fczerlerinden onca vakit ge\u00e7mi\u015f olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen h\u00e2len \u00f6nlenebilir g\u00f6rmeye devam ediyordu. \u201cYar\u0131nki g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcye hepiniz bay\u0131lacaks\u0131n\u0131z,\u201d dedi, Ba\u015fkan\u2019dan \u00e7ok kendisiyle konu\u015farak.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBu hi\u00e7 adil de\u011fil,\u201d dedi Jahns. \u201cKural kurald\u0131r. Ve sen buna kar\u015f\u0131 geldin. \u00dcstelik bunun da fark\u0131ndayd\u0131n.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston g\u00f6zlerini zemine \u00e7evirdi. \u0130kisi de aralar\u0131na bir sessizli\u011fin \u00e7\u00f6kmesine izin verdi. Sonunda s\u00fck\u00fbneti bozan Ba\u015fkan Jahns oldu.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cHen\u00fcz bunu yapmayaca\u011f\u0131na <\/i>dair hi\u00e7bir tehditte bulunmad\u0131n ama aralar\u0131ndan baz\u0131lar\u0131 temizlemeyece\u011fini s\u00f6ylemedi\u011fin i\u00e7in bunu yapmayaca\u011f\u0131n konusunda endi\u015feli.<\/i>\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston g\u00fcld\u00fc. \u201cSens\u00f6rleri temizlemeyece\u011fimi <\/i>s\u00f6yleseydim kendilerini daha m\u0131 iyi hissedeceklerdi?\u201d Bu delice mant\u0131k kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 iki yana sallad\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBug\u00fcne dek o bankta oturmu\u015f herkes bu i\u015fi yapmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi,\u201d dedi Jahns ona, \u201cama sonra yapt\u0131lar. Art\u0131k hepimiz bu s\u00f6zleri bekler\u2013\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cAllison hi\u00e7bir zaman yapmayaca\u011f\u0131m demedi,\u201d diye hat\u0131rlatt\u0131 Holston, ama Jahns\u2019\u0131n neyi kastetti\u011fini biliyordu. Kendisi bile Allison\u2019\u0131n lensleri silmeyece\u011finden \u00e7ok emindi. Ve \u015fimdi, ayn\u0131 bankta otururken e\u015finin neler hissetti\u011fini anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Temizlikten ziyade d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclmesi gereken \u00e7ok daha m\u00fchim konular vard\u0131. D\u0131\u015far\u0131ya g\u00f6nderilenlerin \u00e7o\u011fu bir \u015fey yaparken yakalanm\u0131\u015f, kendilerini o h\u00fccrede bulmaktan ve ecellerinin birka\u00e7 saat \u00f6tede oldu\u011funu bilmekten dolay\u0131 \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimselerdi. Temizli\u011fi yapmayacaklar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylediklerinde kafalar\u0131nda \u00f6\u00e7 alma duygusu vard\u0131. Ancak Allison\u2019\u0131n ve \u015fimdi de Holston\u2019\u0131n kafas\u0131nda daha b\u00fcy\u00fck endi\u015feler vard\u0131. Temizli\u011fi yap\u0131p yapmamalar\u0131 \u00f6nemsizdi; buraya bir buhran an\u0131nda, kendi istekleri do\u011frultusunda gelmi\u015flerdi, sadece burada <\/i>olmak istemi\u015flerdi. Ellerinde kalan tek \u015fey olan bitenin tuhafl\u0131\u011f\u0131yd\u0131. Duvarekrana yans\u0131t\u0131lm\u0131\u015f d\u0131\u015f d\u00fcnyan\u0131n merak\u0131yd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cYani yapacak m\u0131s\u0131n yoksa yapmayacak m\u0131s\u0131n?\u201d diye sordu Jahns do\u011frudan, umutsuzlu\u011fu a\u015fik\u00e2rd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cAz \u00f6nce kendin s\u00f6yledin,\u201d dedi Holston omuz silkerek. \u201cHerkes yap\u0131yor. Bunun bir nedeni olmal\u0131, de\u011fil mi?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Temizli\u011fi yapmalar\u0131n\u0131n nedenini umursam\u0131yormu\u015f gibi davranmay\u0131, ilgilenmiyormu\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyi denedi fakat hayat\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck bir b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc, \u00f6zellikle de son \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131 bunun \u00fczerine kafa patlatmakla ge\u00e7irmi\u015fti. Bu soru onu deli ediyordu. Ve Jahns\u2019\u0131n sorusuna yan\u0131t vermek istememesi kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcren ki\u015filere ac\u0131 \u00e7ektirecekse bundan memnuniyet duyard\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Jahns huzursuz bir bi\u00e7imde ellerini parmakl\u0131klar\u0131n \u00fczerinde bir yukar\u0131 bir a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 kayd\u0131rd\u0131. \u201cOnlara yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yleyebilir miyim?\u201d diye sordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cYapmayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 da s\u00f6yleyebilirsin. Umurumda de\u011fil. Her iki cevap da onlar i\u00e7in ayn\u0131 kap\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131kacak gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Jahns yan\u0131t vermedi. Holston ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p ona bakt\u0131 ve Ba\u015fkan ba\u015f\u0131yla onaylad\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cYemek konusunda fikrini de\u011fi\u015ftirirsen \u015eerif Yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131 Marnes\u2019a s\u00f6ylersin. \u00c2det oldu\u011fu \u00fczere b\u00fct\u00fcn gece masas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda oturacak\u2026\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

S\u00f6ylemesine gerek yoktu. Eski i\u015finin bu k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131 an\u0131msad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 Holston\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zlerine ak\u0131n etti. Temizlik s\u0131ras\u0131 on iki y\u0131l \u00f6nce Donna Parkins\u2019e, sekiz y\u0131l \u00f6nce Jack Brent\u2019e geldi\u011finde o masada n\u00f6bet tutan oydu. Ve \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l \u00f6nce, kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131ras\u0131 geldi\u011finde geceyi parmakl\u0131klara yap\u0131\u015farak ve tam bir harabe gibi yerde yatarak ge\u00e7irmi\u015fti.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ba\u015fkan Jahns gitmek \u00fczere arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u015eerif,\u201d diye m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131 Holston, kad\u0131n i\u015fitme menzilinin d\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kmadan \u00f6nce.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cAnlamad\u0131m?\u201d dedi Jahns parmakl\u0131klar\u0131n di\u011fer taraf\u0131nda bir an duraksay\u0131p; gri ve g\u00fcr ka\u015flar\u0131 g\u00f6zlerinin \u00fcst\u00fcnde gerginle\u015fti bir m\u00fcddet.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cO art\u0131k \u015eerif Marnes,\u201d diye hat\u0131rlatt\u0131 Holston. \u201c\u015eerif Yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131 de\u011fil.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Jahns demir parmakl\u0131klara elinin tersiyle hafif hafif vurdu. \u201cBir \u015feyler ye,\u201d dedi. \u201cBen de sana biraz uyuman gerekti\u011fini hat\u0131rlatacak kadar k\u00fcstahla\u015fmayay\u0131m.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

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<\/i>\u201c\u015eaka<\/i> ediyor olmal\u0131s\u0131n,\u201d dedi Allison. \u201cTatl\u0131m, \u015funu bir dinle. \u0130nanmayacaks\u0131n. Bug\u00fcne dek bir<\/i>den \u00e7ok isyan ya\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyor muydun?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston dizinin \u00fczerinde duran dosyadan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p bakt\u0131. Etraf\u0131na sa\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t y\u0131\u011f\u0131nlar\u0131 yata\u011f\u0131 bir yorgan gibi kaplam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, ay\u0131klanacak deste deste eski dosya ve icab\u0131na bak\u0131lacak yeni \u015fik\u00e2yet mektuplar\u0131yd\u0131 bunlar. Allison yata\u011f\u0131n ayak ucundaki ufak masas\u0131nda oturuyordu. \u0130kisi onlarca y\u0131ld\u0131r yaln\u0131zca iki defa b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f bir silo dairesinde ya\u015f\u0131yorlard\u0131. Bu da masa ve ranza harici geni\u015f yataklar gibi art\u0131k l\u00fcks olarak g\u00f6r\u00fclen e\u015fyalar\u0131 kullanmalar\u0131na f\u0131rsat tan\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cNereden bilebilirim ki?\u201d diye sordu Holston. E\u015fi y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ona d\u00f6nd\u00fc ve kula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n arkas\u0131na bir tutam sa\u00e7 k\u0131st\u0131rd\u0131. Holston elindeki dosyayla kad\u0131n\u0131n bilgisayar ekran\u0131n\u0131 i\u015faret etti. \u201cG\u00fcn boyunca y\u00fczlerce y\u0131ll\u0131k gizemleri \u00e7\u00f6zen sensin ve benden de b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 senden \u00f6nce<\/i> bilmemi mi bekliyorsun?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Allison dil \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. \u201cLaf\u0131n geli\u015fi \u00f6yle s\u00f6yledim. Bu, \u00f6\u011frendiklerimi seninle payla\u015f\u0131m \u015feklim. Sen de biraz daha merakl\u0131 olamaz m\u0131s\u0131n? S\u00f6yledi\u011fim \u015feyi duydun mu?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston omuz silkti. \u201cBizim bildi\u011fimiz isyan\u0131n ilk oldu\u011funu hi\u00e7bir zaman d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemi\u015fimdir zaten. Sadece en son ya\u015fanan o, hepsi bu. E\u011fer bu zamana kadar i\u015fimden \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim bir \u015fey varsa o da hi\u00e7bir su\u00e7un ya da kafay\u0131 s\u0131y\u0131rm\u0131\u015f \u00e7etenin san\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar orijinal olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r.\u201d Dizinin \u00fcst\u00fcnde duran dosyalardan birini ald\u0131. \u201c\u015eu adam\u0131n silonun bug\u00fcne kadar g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ilk su h\u0131rs\u0131z\u0131 oldu\u011funu mu san\u0131yorsun? Ya da sonuncusu mu olacak dersin?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ona d\u00f6nmek i\u00e7in hareketlendi\u011finde Allison\u2019\u0131n sandalyesi d\u00f6\u015femelerin \u00fczerinde ciyaklad\u0131. Arkas\u0131ndaki masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde duran monit\u00f6r, silonun eski sunucular\u0131ndan kurtarabildi\u011fi veri k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 ve par\u00e7ac\u0131klar\u0131yla \u0131\u015f\u0131ldad\u0131; bilgi miraslar\u0131 bundan uzun s\u00fcre \u00f6nce say\u0131s\u0131z kereler silinmi\u015f ve \u00fczerlerine yenileri yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Holston bu veri kurtarma s\u00fcrecinin nas\u0131l i\u015fledi\u011fini bilen ya da bu verileri kurtarmay\u0131 becerebilecek zek\u00e2ya sahip birinin onu sevecek kadar aptal olmas\u0131n\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2 anlam\u0131yordu, ama her ikisinin de do\u011fru \u015feyler oldu\u011funa inan\u0131yordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cEski bir rapor dizisini yeniden bir araya getiriyorum,\u201d dedi Allison. \u201cE\u011fer yaz\u0131lanlar do\u011fruysa isyanlar d\u00fczenli olarak ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f demektir. Yakla\u015f\u0131k her nesilde bir isyan gibi.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cGe\u00e7mi\u015f hakk\u0131nda bilmedi\u011fimiz \u00e7ok fazla \u015fey var,\u201d dedi Holston. G\u00f6zlerini ovu\u015fturup hen\u00fcz tamamlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 evrak i\u015flerini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u201cBelki de sens\u00f6rleri temizlemek i\u00e7in bir sistemleri yoktu, ne dersin? \u0130ddias\u0131na var\u0131m ki en \u00fcst katlar\u0131n manzaras\u0131 insanlar \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rana dek g\u00fcn ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e bulan\u0131kla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r, bir ayaklanma falan olmu\u015ftur, sonunda da aralar\u0131ndan baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 i\u015fleri yoluna koymak \u00fczere s\u00fcrg\u00fcne g\u00f6ndermeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015flard\u0131r. Ya da muhtemelen do\u011fal n\u00fcfus denetimlerini bu \u015fekilde yap\u0131yorlard\u0131, biliyorsun i\u015fte, \u00e7ekili\u015f sisteminden \u00f6nce.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Allison ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 iki yana sallad\u0131. \u201cSanmam. \u015eeyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m\u2026\u201d Duraksad\u0131 ve bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 Holston\u2019\u0131n etraf\u0131na sa\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f evraklara kayd\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6n\u00fcne serili bu \u00e7i\u011fnenmi\u015f kurallar\u0131n kay\u0131tlar\u0131 sanki s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerini daha dikkatli se\u00e7mesini tavsiye eder gibiydi. \u201cBen bir yarg\u0131da bulunmuyorum; kimin hakl\u0131, kimin haks\u0131z oldu\u011funu ya da buna benzer bir \u015fey de s\u00f6ylemiyorum. Sadece diyorum ki belki de sunucular isyan esnas\u0131nda asiler taraf\u0131ndan yok edilmemi\u015ftir. En az\u0131ndan bize her zaman anlat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi olmayabilir.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Bu Holston\u2019\u0131n ilgisini cezbetti. Bo\u015f sunucular\u0131n gizemi ve silonun atalar\u0131n\u0131n silinmi\u015f ge\u00e7mi\u015fi hi\u00e7 kimsenin akl\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yordu. Bu silini\u015f hik\u00e2yesi, detaylar\u0131 \u00e7ok da bilinmeyen bir efsaneydi. \u00dczerinde \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 dosyay\u0131 kapat\u0131p bir kenara koydu. \u201cSence buna ne sebep olmu\u015ftur?\u201d diye sordu e\u015fine. \u201cBir kaza olabilir mi? Bir yang\u0131ndan ya da bir elektrik kesintisinden mesela?\u201d Dillere pelesenk olmu\u015f senaryolar\u0131 tek tek sayd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Allison ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7att\u0131. \u201cHay\u0131r,\u201d dedi. Sesini al\u00e7alt\u0131p etraf\u0131na endi\u015feli bir bak\u0131\u015f att\u0131. \u201cBence hard-diskleri biz<\/i> bo\u015faltt\u0131k. Yani atalar\u0131m\u0131z bo\u015faltt\u0131, asiler de\u011fil.<\/i>\u201d Arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fc ve monit\u00f6re do\u011fru e\u011fildi, ard\u0131ndan Holston\u2019\u0131n yataktan net olarak se\u00e7emedi\u011fi birtak\u0131m say\u0131lar\u0131n \u00fczerinde parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 gezdirdi. \u201cYirmi y\u0131l,\u201d dedi Allison. \u201cOn sekiz. Yirmi d\u00f6rt.\u201d Parma\u011f\u0131 tiz bir ses \u00e7\u0131kararak ekran\u0131n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 k\u0131s\u0131mlar\u0131na kayd\u0131. \u201cYirmi sekiz. On alt\u0131. On be\u015f.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma masas\u0131na gidebilmek i\u00e7in ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n etraf\u0131ndaki k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131 itip evraklar\u0131 yeniden \u00fcst \u00fcste y\u0131\u011farak kendisine yol a\u00e7t\u0131. Yata\u011f\u0131n ayak ucuna oturdu, elini e\u015finin boynuna koydu ve kad\u0131n\u0131n omzunun \u00fcst\u00fcnden monit\u00f6re bakt\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBunlar tarih mi?\u201d diye sordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Allison ba\u015f\u0131yla onaylad\u0131. \u201cNeredeyse her yirmi y\u0131lda bir b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00e7apl\u0131 ayaklanma var. Bu raporda onlar\u0131 listelemi\u015fler. Bu, son isyanda silinen dosyalardan biriydi. Bizim <\/i>isyan\u0131m\u0131zda.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2018Biz\u2019 derken sanki ikisinden ya da arkada\u015flar\u0131ndan biri o isyan s\u0131ras\u0131nda hayattaym\u0131\u015f gibi konu\u015fmu\u015ftu. Ger\u00e7i Holston neyi kastetti\u011fini anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. G\u00f6lgesinde b\u00fcy\u00fcmek zorunda kald\u0131klar\u0131, onlar\u0131 do\u011furdu\u011funa inan\u0131lan isyand\u0131 bu; \u00e7ocukluklar\u0131n\u0131n, ebeveynlerinin ve b\u00fcy\u00fck ebeveynlerinin hayatlar\u0131 boyunca etkisinde kald\u0131klar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmayd\u0131. Hakk\u0131nda f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131larla konu\u015fulan ve yan yan bak\u0131\u015fmalara neden olan isyan.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cPeki bunu yapanlar\u0131n bizler oldu\u011funu, yani sunuculardaki verileri temizleyenlerin iyi adamlar oldu\u011funu sana d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcren nedir?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Allison yar\u0131 yar\u0131ya d\u00f6nd\u00fc ve y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ac\u0131 bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f kaplad\u0131. \u201c\u0130yi adamlar oldu\u011fumuzu da kim s\u00f6ylemi\u015f?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston ciddile\u015fti. Elini Allison\u2019\u0131n boynundan \u00e7ekti. \u201cYine ba\u015flama. Sak\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 belaya\u2013\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u015eaka yap\u0131yorum,\u201d dedi Allison, ama bu \u015faka yap\u0131lacak bir konu de\u011fildi. \u0130hanet su\u00e7una ramak kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, yani temizli\u011fe.<\/i> \u201cBak, benim teorim \u015f\u00f6yle,\u201d dedi h\u0131zl\u0131ca, teori <\/i>s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc vurgulayarak. \u201cNesiller boyunca s\u00fcren bir \u00e7alkant\u0131 var, do\u011fru mu? Yani y\u00fcz y\u0131ldan fazla s\u00fcredir, hatta belki de daha uzun bir zaman boyunca. Kurmal\u0131 bir saat gibi i\u015fliyor.\u201d Parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ucuyla tarihleri g\u00f6sterdi. \u201cAma sonra b\u00fcy\u00fck isyan, yani \u015fu ana dek hakk\u0131nda bir \u015feyler bildi\u011fimiz tek ayaklanma s\u0131ras\u0131nda birileri sunuculardaki verileri sildi ve seni temin ederim ki bu i\u015f birka\u00e7 tu\u015fa basmakla ya da bir yang\u0131n \u00e7\u0131karmakla olacak i\u015f de\u011fil. Bunun i\u00e7in yap\u0131lmas\u0131 gereken bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u015fey var. Koordine bir \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma yap\u0131lmas\u0131 gerekir; yani bu bir kazayla, ayak\u00fcst\u00fc iki t\u0131kla ya da yaln\u0131zca sabotajla a\u00e7\u0131klanabilecek bir durum de\u011fil, ama\u2013\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cAma bu sana i\u015fin sorumlusunun kim oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemiyor,\u201d dedi Holston. Hi\u00e7 \u015f\u00fcphe yok ki e\u015fi bilgisayar konusunda mahir bir b\u00fcy\u00fcc\u00fcyd\u00fc; ancak hafiyelik onun de\u011fil, kendisinin i\u015fiydi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBana s\u00f6yledi\u011fi \u015fey \u015fu,\u201d diye devam etti Allison, \u201ctarihimiz boyunca her nesilde bir isyan olmu\u015f fakat o zaman<\/i>dan bu yana hi\u00e7 olmam\u0131\u015f.\u201d Devam etmemek i\u00e7in duda\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u0131s\u0131rd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston oturdu\u011fu yerde dikle\u015fti. Odaya g\u00f6z gezdirdi ve bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n t\u00fcm odan\u0131n molek\u00fcllerine n\u00fcfuz etmesine izin verdi. Bir anda g\u00f6z\u00fcnde, e\u015finin onun elinden delil \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 kap\u0131p ipu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 bir araya getirdi\u011fi canland\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cYani diyorsun ki\u2026\u201d \u00c7enesini ka\u015f\u0131d\u0131 ve bunu derinlemesine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u201cYani diyorsun ki birileri bir kez daha tekerr\u00fcr ettirmeyelim diye tarihimizi elimizden al\u0131p silmi\u015f, \u00f6yle mi?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cYa da daha beteri.\u201d Allison ellerini uzat\u0131p kocas\u0131n\u0131nkileri tuttu. Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ciddiyet daha da derinle\u015fmi\u015fti. \u201cYa insanlar\u0131n isyan nedenleri burada, bu hard-disklerde sakl\u0131ysa? Ya bizim tarihimizin belirli bir d\u00f6nemi veya d\u0131\u015far\u0131s\u0131 hakk\u0131nda baz\u0131 bilgiler ya da uzun zaman evvel insanlar\u0131n buraya g\u00f6\u00e7 etmelerine, yuvalar\u0131n\u0131 arkalar\u0131nda b\u0131rak\u0131p bir hapis hayat\u0131 ya\u015famalar\u0131na sebep olan neden bu kutularda gizliyse? Ya bu bilgi insanlar\u0131n f\u0131tt\u0131rmas\u0131na, ke\u00e7ileri ka\u00e7\u0131rmas\u0131na ya da d\u0131\u015far\u0131 <\/i>\u00e7\u0131kmak istemesine neden olan bir bask\u0131 yarat\u0131yorsa?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 iki yana sallad\u0131. \u201cB\u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeni istemiyorum,\u201d diye uyard\u0131 Allison\u2019\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cKafay\u0131 s\u0131y\u0131rmakta hakl\u0131 olduklar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemiyorum,\u201d dedi Allison, ihtiyatl\u0131 konu\u015fma tarz\u0131na geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f yaparak. \u201cAma bug\u00fcne kadar bir araya getirdi\u011fim par\u00e7alara g\u00f6re benim teorim b\u00f6yle.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston monit\u00f6re \u015f\u00fcpheci bir bak\u0131\u015f att\u0131. \u201cBelki de bu i\u015fi yapmamal\u0131s\u0131n,\u201d dedi. \u201cBunu nas\u0131l <\/i>yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan bile emin de\u011filim, belki de yapmamal\u0131s\u0131n.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cHayat\u0131m, bilgi orada duruyor. Onlar\u0131 ben a\u00e7\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131karmasam bile g\u00fcn\u00fcn birinde ba\u015fka birileri bunu yapacak. Hakikatten sonsuza dek ka\u00e7amay\u0131z.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cNe demek istiyorsun?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cSilinmi\u015f ya da \u00fczerine yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f dosyalar\u0131 geri kurtarma konusunda bir rapor yay\u0131nlad\u0131m bile. IT departman\u0131n\u0131n di\u011fer \u00e7al\u0131\u015fanlar\u0131, bu raporu ihtiya\u00e7 duyduklar\u0131 dosyalar\u0131 yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131kla silen insanlara yard\u0131m etmek i\u00e7in da\u011f\u0131t\u0131yorlar.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cYine de bu i\u015fi b\u0131rakman gerekti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum.\u201d dedi. \u201cBu iyi bir fikir de\u011fil. Bunun bir i\u015fe yarayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sanm\u0131\u2013\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cHakikatler bir i\u015fe yaramaz m\u0131? Hakikati bilmek her zaman iyidir. Ve onun gizemini ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n yerine bizim aralamam\u0131z daha iyi, de\u011fil mi?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston evraklar\u0131na bakt\u0131. Temizli\u011fe g\u00f6nderilen son ki\u015finin \u00fczerinden be\u015f y\u0131l ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. D\u0131\u015far\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc her ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn k\u00f6t\u00fcye gidiyordu ve bir \u015ferif olarak ba\u015fka birini bulma gereklili\u011finin bask\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 omuzlar\u0131nda hissediyordu. Bu bask\u0131, sanki silonun i\u00e7inde bir buhar birikmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00fcn ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e art\u0131yordu ve her an d\u0131\u015far\u0131 sal\u0131nmaya haz\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130nsanlar vaktin yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcklerinde geriliyorlard\u0131. O bilindik, kendi kendini ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftiren kehanetlerden biri gibiydi bu. Kehanet, sonunda birilerini gere gere barda\u011f\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131r\u0131r, o ki\u015fi de gider birisine sert\u00e7e ya da sayg\u0131s\u0131zca bir \u015feyler s\u00f6yler, ard\u0131ndan kendini bulan\u0131k g\u00fcn bat\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 nezarethanede son kez izlerken bulurdu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Holston i\u00e7lerinden birinde bir \u015feyler olmas\u0131n\u0131 umut ederek etraf\u0131ndaki dosyalardan birka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 ay\u0131rd\u0131. E\u011fer o biriken bas\u0131nc\u0131 salmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flayacaksa hemen yar\u0131n bir adam\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcme mahk\u00fbm edebilirdi. Allison fazla \u015fi\u015firilmi\u015f, kocaman bir balonu i\u011fneyle d\u00fcrtmekteydi ve Holston e\u015fi fazla d\u00fcrt\u00fcklemeden \u00f6nce o balonun havas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrmeye niyetliydi.<\/span><\/p>\n

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[1]<\/a> Bitkilerin suyun i\u00e7inde yer alan mineraller vas\u0131tas\u0131yla yeti\u015ftirildi\u011fi, topraks\u0131z ve g\u00fcbresiz bir bah\u00e7e t\u00fcr\u00fc \u2013 yhn.<\/p>\n

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\u00c7eviri, M. RAS\u0130M EM\u0130ROSMANO\u011eLU<\/strong>, G\u00d6KHAN SARI<\/strong><\/span>
\n Yay\u0131na Haz\u0131rlayan, M. \u0130HSAN TATAR\u0130<\/strong><\/span><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

S\u0130LO Hugh Howey B\u0130R\u0130NC\u0130 B\u00d6L\u00dcM HOLSTON 1 Holston, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne giden yolda basamaklar\u0131 bir bir t\u0131rman\u0131rken, \u00e7ocuklar En-Tepe\u2019de habersizce oyun oynamaya devam ediyorlard\u0131; sadece mutlu \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n yapabilece\u011fi bir bi\u00e7imde ba\u011fr\u0131\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 duyabiliyordu. Onlar hemen yukar\u0131s\u0131nda deliler gibi tepinirken usul usul \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 basamaklar\u0131 Holston. Sarmal merdiveni d\u00fczenli ve hantal ad\u0131mlarla t\u0131rman\u0131rken eskimi\u015f botlar\u0131 metal basamaklar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131nlat\u0131yordu. T\u0131pk\u0131 babas\u0131ndan […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":4833,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"fullwidth.php","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"class_list":{"0":"post-32263","1":"page","2":"type-page","3":"status-publish","5":"kose_yazari-m-ihsan-tatari-arsivi"},"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kayiprihtim.org\/portal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/32263","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kayiprihtim.org\/portal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kayiprihtim.org\/portal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kayiprihtim.org\/portal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kayiprihtim.org\/portal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=32263"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kayiprihtim.org\/portal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/32263\/revisions"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kayiprihtim.org\/portal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/4833"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kayiprihtim.org\/portal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=32263"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}