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A\u00c7ILI\u015e<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n \u015eEKER, BAHARAT VE T\u00dcM G\u00dcZEL \u015eEYLER<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Talulla Demetriou,<\/em> \u00c7ok<\/em> (Nokta) K\u00f6t\u00fc<\/em> (Nokta) Bir<\/em> (Nokta) K\u0131zs\u0131n<\/em> (Nokta).<\/span><\/p>\n Annem, g\u00f6z\u00fcnde bir keyif p\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131, hep b\u00f6yle s\u00f6ylerdi. Kendisi de \u00c7ok K\u00f6t\u00fc Bir K\u0131zd\u0131. Her \u015feyden \u00f6te g\u00fc\u00e7s\u00fczl\u00fckten nefret ederdi. \u00d6zellikle de g\u00fc\u00e7s\u00fcz kad\u0131nlardan. Saf k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc tercih ederdi. Gerekti\u011fi zaman kendisi de saf k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011fe d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sadece k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, elit bir grubu tasvip ederdi: ailemiz, bir avu\u00e7 dost, baz\u0131 \u00fcnl\u00fcler. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n geri kalan\u0131 aptallar ve banalliklerle doluydu. Onlara \u0130nsanlar<\/em> derdi.<\/span><\/p>\n (Tanr\u0131 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f olsa da ironi h\u00e2l\u00e2 capcanl\u0131\u2026)<\/span><\/p>\n Biraz daha b\u00fcy\u00fcy\u00fcnce, psikopat ter\u00f6rist Katolik teyzem Theresa sayesinde Utanmaz K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Bir K\u0131z oldu\u011fumu da ke\u015ffettim. Tam olarak Utanmaz, Edepsiz<\/em> K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Bir K\u0131z. Sekiz ya\u015f\u0131ndayken, evin bodrumunda Toby Greely\u2019yle doktorculuk oynarken yakalam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bizi. Toby ve ben odan\u0131n sessizli\u011finde, karton kutular, k\u0131r\u0131k bir pinpon masas\u0131 ve yar\u0131 aralanm\u0131\u015f perdelerin aras\u0131nda yaln\u0131zd\u0131k; sonra aniden sessizlik bozuldu ve birinin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettim. Theresa Teyzem en alt merdivende duruyordu. Kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131 adi nemlendirici y\u00fcz\u00fcnden surat\u0131 hep \u0131slak g\u00f6z\u00fck\u00fcrd\u00fc fakat bizi bast\u0131\u011f\u0131 anda surat\u0131n\u0131 parlatan \u015fey krem de\u011fil, b\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc kutsall\u0131k kisvesiydi. Benim<\/em> surat\u0131m ise cay\u0131r cay\u0131r yan\u0131yordu. Pantolonum bileklerime kadar inmi\u015f vaziyette, Toby dizlerinin \u00fczerinde beni uzunca bir s\u00fcre sessizce ve yumu\u015fak\u00e7a incelerken i\u00e7imi yumu\u015fak bir his doldurmu\u015ftu. Tam bir ayd\u0131nlanma ya\u015famak \u00fczere oldu\u011fuma inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ve bas\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda korkman\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra acayip g\u0131c\u0131k da oldum. O anda bile Toby\u2019yle kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yerden devam etmemiz gerekecek diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum.<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cTalulla Demetriou,\u201d dedi Theresa Teyze, \u201cne utanmaz bir k\u0131zs\u0131n.\u201d Sonra h\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 alamay\u0131p ekledi: \u201cUtanmaz, edepsiz, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir k\u0131zs\u0131n.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n Bu Utanmaz Edepsiz K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck K\u0131z g\u00fczeldi ve k\u00f6t\u00fc \u015feylerden ho\u015flan\u0131rd\u0131. Orta sonda yine kendisi gibi g\u00fczel olan ve k\u00f6t\u00fc \u015feylerden ho\u015flanan Lauren Miller\u2019la arkada\u015f olmu\u015ftu. Mesela s\u0131n\u0131flar\u0131nda s\u00fcrekli burnu akan ve duda\u011f\u0131nda u\u00e7uklar olan, FOKA\u00c7 (Fortlanmayacak Kadar \u00c7irkin) ismini takt\u0131klar\u0131 bir k\u0131zla dalga ge\u00e7erlerdi. Bir g\u00fcn Utanmaz Edepsiz K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck K\u0131z teneff\u00fcste Jason Wells\u2019in kuca\u011f\u0131nda oturmu\u015fken, Lauren FOKA\u00c7\u2019a korkun\u00e7 bir \u015fey s\u00f6yledi. Utanmaz Edepsiz K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck K\u0131z, FOKA\u00c7\u2019\u0131n surat\u0131ndan cidden k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc ama tam o an, Jason\u2019\u0131n organ\u0131 kal\u00e7as\u0131na dayanm\u0131\u015fken Utanmaz Edepsiz K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck K\u0131z o yumu\u015fak hissi tekrar hissetti ve arada bir ba\u011f oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131. Sanki \u015eeytan arkadan ona sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015fken geriye yaslan\u0131yor ve k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn \u015fa\u015f\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yordu.<\/span><\/p>\n \u00dcniversitede ise \u00c7ok Utanmaz Edepsiz K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck K\u0131z karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00fc\u00e7lerinin arac\u0131 oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131. En k\u00f6t\u00fc gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n tipine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc: Olmas\u0131 gereken kad\u0131n\u0131 aktif olarak politize ediyor fakat o kad\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmek yerine k\u00f6t\u00fc adamlardan ho\u015flan\u0131yor, marazi cinsel fanteziler kuruyor, kendini olabildi\u011fince seksi hale getiriyor ve sonunda do\u011fru hayat\u0131 ya\u015famak i\u00e7in fazla bencil, g\u00fczel, tembel ve sapk\u0131n oldu\u011funu kabulleniyordu. \u0130kinci senesinin sonunda a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a yanl\u0131\u015f yazarlar\u0131 okumaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Art\u0131k seksi bir elbise veya politik a\u00e7\u0131dan i\u00e7i bo\u015f ayakkab\u0131lar giydi\u011finde ya da birinin onu arkadan becermesine izin verdi\u011finde (ki bu ayr\u0131cal\u0131\u011f\u0131 karma\u015f\u0131k hislerle veya \u00e7ok sarho\u015fken pek az erke\u011fe tan\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131) kendini etik ikilemler i\u00e7inde bulmuyordu.<\/span><\/p>\n Sonunda \u00c7ok Utanmaz Edepsiz K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck K\u0131z, ahlaki yozla\u015fmay\u0131 nihayetine erdirip Edebiyat y\u00fcksek lisans\u0131n\u0131 tamamlamak yerine i\u015f kad\u0131n\u0131 olmay\u0131 se\u00e7ti. A\u00e7g\u00f6zl\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn esiriydi art\u0131k! Daha sonra bir sevgilisi (t\u00fcm sevgilileri sona erdiren sevgili) Amerikan ticaretine b\u00fcy\u00fck yatk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi\u011finde hi\u00e7 \u015fa\u015f\u0131rmad\u0131. Annesi, k\u0131z\u0131 kendine bu kadar benzedi\u011fi i\u00e7in hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131na u\u011frasa da, bundan gururu ok\u015fanacak kadar kibirliydi de.<\/span><\/p>\n \u00c7ok Utanmaz Edepsiz K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck K\u0131z\u2019\u0131n tarih\u00e7esi g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcnde bulunduruldu\u011funda, evlili\u011finin kendi ihaneti y\u00fcz\u00fcnden de\u011fil de kocas\u0131n\u0131n ihaneti y\u00fcz\u00fcnden sona ermesi olduk\u00e7a \u015fa\u015f\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131yd\u0131. Hayat\u0131nda bir kez ahlaki \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011fe sahip oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in k\u0131sa s\u00fcreli\u011fine de olsa sevinmi\u015fti.<\/span><\/p>\n Sevinci sahiden k\u0131sa s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Her \u015fey olabilirim ama en az\u0131ndan yalanc\u0131 de\u011filim seni rezil pislik<\/em> serzeni\u015finden k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre sonra, bir gece Arizona \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcnde bir kurtadam taraf\u0131ndan \u0131s\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131. Ahlaki \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck onun i\u00e7in sonsuza dek sona erdi. Ayda bir insanlar\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcp yiyebilece\u011fini ke\u015ffetmenin yan\u0131 s\u0131ra, ayda bir insanlar\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcp yemekten keyif <\/em>de ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ke\u015ffetti.<\/span><\/p>\n